I am lying here in my bed in VANCOUVER...pondering all things, my career, my family, my friends...being away from home sometimes really feels ugly. I miss my family so much and yet I am doing what I am called to do. (Called: a Christian word totally overused...however I just used it!)
I am reviewing my dreams and my hopes for my career...my music! I am also pondering how they intersect with my family...my friends and my faith...deep thoughts!
I have been "dreaming" of this career thing for so long, it almost feels as though there is nothing left to dream about...it feels so unattainable...it feels as though my dreams were just torture. Go after it, you can do it...or NOT!! I feel as though the last 15 years have been a constant grasping for the infamous dangled carrot, that always feels out of reach!
My dreams are still there and seem to always re-surface, but the light is dimmer all the time!! I am struggling to come to grips with reality...is quitting the reality I need to embrace...or is continuing to battle this my reality?
It's strange, this battle never gets old. I battled this at 16 and I feel I will battle this until I die.
Here is the piece of this puzzle that I truly believe is the KEY TO SUCCESS...seriously, keep reading...
As I look back...a ton of my BIG dreams have become a reality!!!
1. I sang on tour with the Gaither's
2. I sang with my vocal hero's...Michael English, Steve Archer, Russ Taff
3. I toured with Avalon
4. I am on 2 Platinum video's (one that debuted #1 on Billboard)
5. I have been full-time in music for 10 years
6. I have toured Canada, from coast to coast MANY times!!
7. I am able to pour into the lives of other artist's with my LIVE MUSIC PRODUCING
8. I have recorded 6 CD's
You see...when I look back there are many things I can see that I have accomplished...the only problem is...the dream keeps getting bigger!!! There are new dreams that I need to fight to grasp! There are new goals I need to reach...
The problem is, the striving for new goals needs to be balanced by the looking back and having gratitude!
I have the most amazing wife, 3 wonderful kids, I am doing what I believe I was made to do...and I am surrounded with incredible friends and peers that make my life rich!!!
So...have I stopped striving...NOT A CHANCE!! But with a good dose of seeing where I have come from...taking stock in where I have been and what I have done...I can continue to strive for bigger and better...
One last thing...I have to tell you that this journey without a relationship with the Almighty God is fruitless. Nothing without him is worthwhile!! HE is the reason I get up everyday and HOPE!! HE is the reason I sing...HE is the reason I love!!
Jesus Christ gives me the courage to HOPE, and DREAM when it feels like I can't go on!!
Make HIM a part of your world...your life, your dreams...HE, afterall, is the dream-maker!!
Blessings,
KP
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Kevin, I need you to contact me right away. I feel like such a jerk!! I met you when you performed at our Church Anniversary over the May 9th weekend. And I need to send you something, my email is jodiegarden@hotmail.com. My name is Jodie obviously, and I need to apologize for something! Thanks so much! hope to hear from you soon!
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