I have been surrounded lately with a whole bunch of people that never do anything wrong!!! They can mess up, sometimes really badly, and it is never their fault. WOW - that is tough to do...be blameless.
I have run across people right across this country that have a real hard time dealing with screwing up. They cannot simply take ownership of their issues, take criticism (even when it is asked for). They are like teflon - NOTHING STICKS!!
I was at a music festival with 2 stages...the one stage, the sound was pretty consistent and the overall sound was good. The other stage...was not very good at all, the entire day!! The sound man came to me 3 times during the day and said..."I wish I had a band I could mix!" Seriously, the bands were the problem??
In life - we need to take control of our own issues. We cannot play the victim. If you are constantly blaming, or always pointing the finger...BE CAREFUL!!
Well, with all of my faults (there are many) I do not suffer from this! I am sitting in BC this morning, taking stock and looking back and realizing that I have not done what I need to do with the gifts that God has given to me. I look around, and I see how much others have done with less...and it is very convicting. I have made poor decisions, i have not worked as hard as I could have. It is really tough to look at your life and realize some of your decisions have lead you to this place.
I can't blame others, I won't blame others...
BUT - where do you go from here. Taking stock is not enough. I don't want to know what I did wrong, if I keep doing it. SO - It is a time in my life that I need to move forward. Time to start making better decisions...making better choices.
It is my fault...and now I need to make is my choice, not to make the same mistakes.
Well - how is that for a little self reflection...Sometimes this BC air is too fresh!
Have a great day - and if you are finding yourself, always blaming others...LOOK INSIDE!!!!
KP
Showing posts with label Inner self. Show all posts
Showing posts with label Inner self. Show all posts
Saturday, July 2, 2011
Tuesday, June 1, 2010
Inner and Outer = ?? Really??
Strange title...I know!! Here is the idea behind this...
My life over the last 5 years or so has been very frustrating...Spritually, Physically, Financially and Professionally. I have been trying to better myself and my family - doing a lot of the same things over and over and over and over...expecting things to finally fall into place and therefore gain a different result. I know that you dont do that...I understand that is the definition of insanity - BUT I never really equated that to what I was doing - I didn't think I was doing the same things, they always looked different.
I came to this conclusion a little while ago but never put it into practice...I fought the same demons in my life, seemed to battle the same things, frustrated by the same things...always in a financial bind...never having enough but always being so close to something big - looking and feeling like a loser! I was waffling and didn't really know what to do...
I use to always tell Wendy that I felt that my physical body was a representation of my relationship with God - hang on let me explain my theology!!
I really felt that when I neglected my body it effected my spiritual growth, my relationship with God and others were also effected negatively. When I keep my car clean, my room clean, the house clean, look after my family, work hard and stay in shape...ALL of those things feel like an outward representation of my relationship with God. My mind seems clearer, I seem to have the capacity to be a better person...
This last week has only started to skim the surface for me, but I have noticed that my level of patience is a bit better...my thoughts are clearer...I feel an inner growth because I am starting to care about the outer again! Does this make sense??
I know this is really "out there" thinking but I do feel that there is a corelation between looking after the "temple" and the health of my relationship with God!
Maybe it is just that I am allowing God to speak to me as I run...as I empty myself of the "toxins" I am able to fill it with HIS presence. Maybe all of this is teaching me to take control of the "flesh" and anytime you do that you allow God to speak to you...
ANYWAY - I don't always explain myself very well, but I know that the more I look after the outer person, the better my inner person becomes and my relationship with God is allowed to grow!
So - here's to a sub-4 HOUR Marathon and a better INNER Kevin Pauls!!!
KP
My life over the last 5 years or so has been very frustrating...Spritually, Physically, Financially and Professionally. I have been trying to better myself and my family - doing a lot of the same things over and over and over and over...expecting things to finally fall into place and therefore gain a different result. I know that you dont do that...I understand that is the definition of insanity - BUT I never really equated that to what I was doing - I didn't think I was doing the same things, they always looked different.
I came to this conclusion a little while ago but never put it into practice...I fought the same demons in my life, seemed to battle the same things, frustrated by the same things...always in a financial bind...never having enough but always being so close to something big - looking and feeling like a loser! I was waffling and didn't really know what to do...
I use to always tell Wendy that I felt that my physical body was a representation of my relationship with God - hang on let me explain my theology!!
I really felt that when I neglected my body it effected my spiritual growth, my relationship with God and others were also effected negatively. When I keep my car clean, my room clean, the house clean, look after my family, work hard and stay in shape...ALL of those things feel like an outward representation of my relationship with God. My mind seems clearer, I seem to have the capacity to be a better person...
This last week has only started to skim the surface for me, but I have noticed that my level of patience is a bit better...my thoughts are clearer...I feel an inner growth because I am starting to care about the outer again! Does this make sense??
I know this is really "out there" thinking but I do feel that there is a corelation between looking after the "temple" and the health of my relationship with God!
Maybe it is just that I am allowing God to speak to me as I run...as I empty myself of the "toxins" I am able to fill it with HIS presence. Maybe all of this is teaching me to take control of the "flesh" and anytime you do that you allow God to speak to you...
ANYWAY - I don't always explain myself very well, but I know that the more I look after the outer person, the better my inner person becomes and my relationship with God is allowed to grow!
So - here's to a sub-4 HOUR Marathon and a better INNER Kevin Pauls!!!
KP
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