the real kevin pauls

Late Christmas...

2012-01-05T10:51:00.001-05:00

I am very excited to pick up my oldest daughter Lauren. She has been living in Mexico for the last 4 months. She is coming home for a visit before heading back there until May. So, my other kids, Amber and Jordan, along with my wife decided that we would hold off on doing our big Christmas until She got home!! Well...Saturday we will have our family Christmas!!! It is amazing how much you miss your kids when they are not with you!

We are so glad that we finally get to be together and Saturday will be awesome...We get her back for almost 3 weeks (longer than anticipated)!

Lauren has been involved with an organization called Possibilities International. Their website is www.iam1ru.com - Check it out. This organization is amazing. They do so many good things around the world...Central Asia, Africa, Guatemala, Mexico and a few others!

I am so proud of my little girl...who is not so little anymore - she has grown into a beautiful young lady and is seeking to make her mark on the world. I am so grateful God has allowed her to be in our lives...We are very blessed!!

Live TV Taping - Spirit of Christmas Tour 2011

2011-12-17T21:01:00.000-05:00

Please note time change!!!

Live TV Taping - Spirit of Christmas Tour 2011

Live TV Taping - Spirit of Christmas Tour 2011

2011-12-17T17:37:00.000-05:00

Live TV Taping - Spirit of Christmas Tour 2011

Canada's Got Talent Audition Sept. 27th

2011-09-28T08:51:00.001-04:00

Well, the waiting is over...or is it?? I arrived at the Rogers Centre around 11:45 am and we parked at the centre. Parking is expensive anywhere in TO so we thought we should get the closest spot!! We got a lot of good instruction, the security guards and the Rogers Centre staff were well informed and they guided us to the right place very quickly! My lovely wife took the day to come with me!! I was so glad to have her with me. We got our wrist bands and stood in line...we were in line by 12:15 and the waiting began. As we walked towards the line up for the people with an appointment, we saw a HUGE line of people with NO appointment - WHY would you not have per-registered? Seriously, the website has been up for months and the line up is going to be crazy...BUT some did decide last minute. I have not idea how long their wait was going to be!!

They walked us into the Rogers Centre shortly after 1pm. I finally got into the Centre around 1:30, not too bad, the line was moving most of the time...slowly, but it was moving!! Had some interesting people around me...there was a few tribute artists (Elvis - and yes they all knew Steve Kabakos...He played Elvis in the Return to Grace Show I was in at Fallsview Casino!!), there were a few people entertaining the troops in line...I use the term entertaining very loosely!!

I talked with a lady that was singing me her song in line....the song that she needed lyrics for because she just wrote the song the night before!! REALLY???

So we got in, I got my number and was sitting in the stands waiting for my number to be called. When you enter the "SkyDome" you register and they give you a number to wear and they also give you a paper to fill out the details of your performance and the song etc...This lady came and sat down in front of me and started to ask questions about the form. Sweet lady. She had her form partially filled out and was asking questions about EVERY SINGLE QUESTION!! She did not even know the number on her bib (the BIG sticker they give us witha HUGE number on it!!) I showed her that and she was grateful...then she asked about every detail....it was rather funny BUT THE BEST PART WAS TO FOLLOW - She turned to me and asked if she could sing her song for me...Not knowing exactly how to respond I shook my head in agreement...she told me that she was singing, I Will Always Love You - by Whitney Houston and she began. She started singing..."from this moment, i have been blessed..." I looked a little concerned...she continued, "I live only for your happiness..." I started to look even more concerned and I stopped her. I said, "Do you know that you are singing a totally different song?" She looked stunned. She said, "Well how does the other song go?" I told her she better just stick to the words she knows and switch the song she was singing...SERIOUSLY!!!??? She did not event know how to sing the song she was going to audition. I was so tempted to not say anything...but I could not do that to her!! Shania Twain, From This Moment...sounds so similar to Whitney Houston - NOT!!!!

Anyway - my number was called and I finally able to sing Broken Wings for the producers. They seemed to respond well, they seemed to be engaged. They asked me a number of questions after, they allowed me to sing more than we were supposed to...SO??? What does that mean? I have not idea!! I hope I did enough to go through...BUT one does not know...

Either way, this was a great experience and I am glad that I did it!

We now wait until October 31 to see if they contact me. I have to admit that I will be very disappointment if this does not work. I have sung in some pretty cool places and have had some great tours to be a part of, but this could be an amazing opportunity for some major league exposure. I really do want this!! Another month of waiting...what else is new!!??

Stay in touch - enjoy the journey with me!! THANK YOU so much for everyone that has made this journey so much fun!

Kevin

Country Cares - CCMA Showacse

2011-08-24T15:14:00.000-04:00

Country Cares - CCMA Showacse

its my fault!

2011-07-02T12:17:00.000-04:00

I have been surrounded lately with a whole bunch of people that never do anything wrong!!! They can mess up, sometimes really badly, and it is never their fault. WOW - that is tough to do...be blameless.

I have run across people right across this country that have a real hard time dealing with screwing up. They cannot simply take ownership of their issues, take criticism (even when it is asked for). They are like teflon - NOTHING STICKS!!

I was at a music festival with 2 stages...the one stage, the sound was pretty consistent and the overall sound was good. The other stage...was not very good at all, the entire day!! The sound man came to me 3 times during the day and said..."I wish I had a band I could mix!" Seriously, the bands were the problem??

In life - we need to take control of our own issues. We cannot play the victim. If you are constantly blaming, or always pointing the finger...BE CAREFUL!!

Well, with all of my faults (there are many) I do not suffer from this! I am sitting in BC this morning, taking stock and looking back and realizing that I have not done what I need to do with the gifts that God has given to me. I look around, and I see how much others have done with less...and it is very convicting. I have made poor decisions, i have not worked as hard as I could have. It is really tough to look at your life and realize some of your decisions have lead you to this place.

I can't blame others, I won't blame others...

BUT - where do you go from here. Taking stock is not enough. I don't want to know what I did wrong, if I keep doing it. SO - It is a time in my life that I need to move forward. Time to start making better decisions...making better choices.

It is my fault...and now I need to make is my choice, not to make the same mistakes.

Well - how is that for a little self reflection...Sometimes this BC air is too fresh!

Have a great day - and if you are finding yourself, always blaming others...LOOK INSIDE!!!!

KP

Country Music...YES - My new stuff is Country!!

2011-06-29T12:03:00.000-04:00

I have been working really hard over the last 4 years...changing my style (a little) and working on finding great new songs. This process has been painful and expensive!!

I am so excited to have the process almost over. The touring this fall will have all my new music - a complete overhaul of the show!! I debut this "new show" in September. And than there is Christmas...

I am so excited about the new challenge of playing brand new music, a little different direction...but most of all A NEW AUDIENCE!! I have wanted to expand my audience for a while now. This will take me to a whole new group of people...

Stay in touch...love to bring all my old friends with me as well :) !!!

kevin

Missionary in need...please help!

2011-06-13T10:33:00.001-04:00

PLEASE CLICK ON LINK - This missionary needs our support!! Thank you so much!!

http://myemail.constantcontact.com/Special-Report---PI-Dream-Agent-needs-help.html?soid=1101888203147&aid=n1-eJ4yY7gY

Kevin Pauls

Really? You want to go there??

2011-05-28T10:57:00.000-04:00

Did you just say that? Seriously? You want to take on that topic online? REALLY??

I was wondering if this kind of controversial opening line hooked you or did you just read on because you wanted to? What did you think I was going to talk about? Sex, Religion, Downloading music? Did you say downloading music??

Yeah...that's right I said it! I am curious...Do you think that downloading music for FREE (without the writer or the performer saying it's ok) is wrong.

Now let's just say it was legal (which is not...it is stealing!!) BUT - because of the amount of this going on I have a couple questions. I would love to understand your thoughts about the following:

1. Do you feel ok about not paying for music?
2. Do you think the law should and will change?
3. Are you more willing to go see an artist in concert if you like their music that you tried for free?
4. Would you consider paying for the entire CD if the price was right and it was easy?
5. What price point would a CD have to be for you to pay for it rather than download it for free??

I know the music biz is changing...I would love to know your thoughts. Be honest...there is no judgement here...the landscape is changing and I would like to see what your opinion is!

Thanks for your time to discuss this topic!!

Kevin

its been a while...

2011-05-16T11:31:00.002-04:00

I am lying here in my bed in VANCOUVER...pondering all things, my career, my family, my friends...being away from home sometimes really feels ugly. I miss my family so much and yet I am doing what I am called to do. (Called: a Christian word totally overused...however I just used it!)

I am reviewing my dreams and my hopes for my career...my music! I am also pondering how they intersect with my family...my friends and my faith...deep thoughts!

I have been "dreaming" of this career thing for so long, it almost feels as though there is nothing left to dream about...it feels so unattainable...it feels as though my dreams were just torture. Go after it, you can do it...or NOT!! I feel as though the last 15 years have been a constant grasping for the infamous dangled carrot, that always feels out of reach!

My dreams are still there and seem to always re-surface, but the light is dimmer all the time!! I am struggling to come to grips with reality...is quitting the reality I need to embrace...or is continuing to battle this my reality?

It's strange, this battle never gets old. I battled this at 16 and I feel I will battle this until I die.

Here is the piece of this puzzle that I truly believe is the KEY TO SUCCESS...seriously, keep reading...

As I look back...a ton of my BIG dreams have become a reality!!!

1. I sang on tour with the Gaither's
2. I sang with my vocal hero's...Michael English, Steve Archer, Russ Taff
3. I toured with Avalon
4. I am on 2 Platinum video's (one that debuted #1 on Billboard)
5. I have been full-time in music for 10 years
6. I have toured Canada, from coast to coast MANY times!!
7. I am able to pour into the lives of other artist's with my LIVE MUSIC PRODUCING
8. I have recorded 6 CD's

You see...when I look back there are many things I can see that I have accomplished...the only problem is...the dream keeps getting bigger!!! There are new dreams that I need to fight to grasp! There are new goals I need to reach...

The problem is, the striving for new goals needs to be balanced by the looking back and having gratitude!

I have the most amazing wife, 3 wonderful kids, I am doing what I believe I was made to do...and I am surrounded with incredible friends and peers that make my life rich!!!

So...have I stopped striving...NOT A CHANCE!! But with a good dose of seeing where I have come from...taking stock in where I have been and what I have done...I can continue to strive for bigger and better...

One last thing...I have to tell you that this journey without a relationship with the Almighty God is fruitless. Nothing without him is worthwhile!! HE is the reason I get up everyday and HOPE!! HE is the reason I sing...HE is the reason I love!!

Jesus Christ gives me the courage to HOPE, and DREAM when it feels like I can't go on!!

Make HIM a part of your world...your life, your dreams...HE, afterall, is the dream-maker!!

Blessings,

KP

reflections of Return to Grace...ELVIS!

2011-04-05T13:40:00.003-04:00

Well, I just finished nearly 4 weeks of living at Fallsview Casino performing RETURN TO GRACE...a tribute to Elvis Presley. The show was fantastic!! The players in the band were amazing, the singers were all top drawer and the one who played Elvis...WOW!! STEVE KABAKOS

I had a thought...if Steve, who is paying tribute to Elvis can be so good at bringing us joy and remembering a singer...is there a lesson to be learned??

We are (those of us that call ourselves followers of Christ) called to imitate Jesus. We are called to study His life, and to be like Him in this world. Do we do a good job? When people look at our lives do they see Jesus? Do they see a good representation of Christ? Are we bringing people joy, and leaving them wanting to know more about the one we serve?

FOOD FOR THOUGHT!

Blessings,

Kevin

Inside OUT...

2011-02-14T08:31:00.005-05:00

good morning...this is our 25th Valentines Day together. 25 times that we have had the opportunity to say I Love You! 25 times that the day has dictated we say, I Love You...I really like Valentines Day! I haven't always performed well...some years I totally blew it and others I went over board as if to make up for lost time. This year i went pretty traditional. Saturday I went out in the morning and bought a dozen roses. My wife still loves flowers. We decided that we would do dinner and a movie tonight and just have a relaxed time together. No big expectation, but simple signs of our love and the fact that we still like to be together!!

Now, Valentines Day has not always been a huge priority because I try and make as many days as possible "I Love You" days! BUT - there is something special about a public day, that begs us to act out in a loving way. So I embrace that today and publicly say I LOVE YOU to the most wonderful women I could have ever married. I am glad that we are life partners...Wendy Pauls - You are my Valentine!

The interesting thing is that I have daily tried to make this relationship work. It was not always perfect and it still is not perfect...BUT - I do remember praying many days..."God, let me love Wendy more today than yesterday..." I prayed that for years. I prayed that I would continue to love her like we were newlyweds! I saw a lot of people after 20 plus years just living with someone...not passionate anymore, not really happy - just living with them!! YUCK! I did not want to be 50 - empty nest and alone with my spouse and say - honey, this is boring!!! SO - I have worked at loving my wife with everything I have...(I have fallen short far more than I have hit the mark by the way...) BUT I have tried and that has paid off.

So - this last Sunday at the Meeting House (our church) the pastor Tim Day was preaching the final message on the topic Inside Out...Real Change. "Be transformed by the renewing of your mind" - kinda change! This type of change does not happen all of a sudden. I realized the correlation of this kind of change to my marriage. A good marriage does not happen over night...it is a process! Real change is a process...

We cannot view God as a microwave of change. He does not normally zap someone and they instantly become free of all their "stuff". Often this is a LONG process...it is driven by US!!! This "renewing of our minds" is deep stuff. it is not as simple as "Lord, I want to be better...Help me!" This is a daily process of laying down our will, seeking His and applying it. Making decisions that lead us closer to His way of thinking. I am trying to lose weight...this is a moment by moment struggle - decision after decision - choosing the right foods...not tempting myself by sitting in front of a Krispy Kreme and hoping God will reduce my cravings!!

I have some of the same issues that plague me today, that plagued me 20 years ago...WHY? I think it is because my thinking has not changed. I have been asking for symptoms to be removed, and when they are not I simply give up!

I need to transformed by the renewing of my mind!!! What I put into my mind dictates what will come out of it...What I watch, what I read, where I spend my time...what I ponder...

If I think loving thoughts towards Wendy - I seem to find it easier to love her. If I think sinful thoughts, negative thoughts...put inappropriate images into my head...interestingly I do not feel like loving God's way...My mind is not transformed...

I am going to work hard at changing my patterns...changing the things that I can, and than allowing God to work on my heart!

This Valentines Day I want to work towards a renewed mind! Start changing my thought patterns, my reading patterns...If you do the same thing expecting a different result...well you know!

"Be transformed by the renewing of your MIND!!" I am excited to start this journey again...I love knowing that my God is the God of 2nd chances...over and over and over!!

Love your spouse, Love your God...and LOVE those around you!!!

Happy Valentines Day!

Kevin

PS - Check out a new LOVE song that will be on the upcoming CD "Missing You To Death"

Broken Wings - Kevin Pauls LIVE

2011-02-08T15:29:00.000-05:00

Higher (Live Acoustic Version)

2011-02-08T14:27:00.000-05:00

New Song...Missing You to Death

2011-02-08T14:26:00.000-05:00

New Year...New Hopes and New Dreams!!

2011-01-18T11:11:00.004-05:00

2011 came way too fast...I was just getting use to saying 2010 and now I need to get use to a new year! Our lives get so complex and scattered it is really hard to believe that time goes by SO FAST!! Because of this, I am trying hard to put into practice the statement on the bottom of my email..."relentlessly remove hurry from your life..."

I just finished reading a book called CRAZY LOVE!! goto www.crazylovebook.com - It will ROCK your world!! It has mine! I really recommend this book to anyone that has a desire to know God and to understand the TRUE meaning of what Jesus called us to. We have...at least I have, not been a good example of what Christ called us to in the scriptures. I have taken His sayings and found ways to make them mean something else, just so they would fit better with my lifestyle! I am currently working on a new world view...a new personal and spiritual paradigm. I am challenged like never before to look at the way I view "stuff", the way I view the poor, the way I view hardship (and even how I define hardship!)

The more gadgets I have in my life, the easier life gets...the harder it is to hear the voice of God and to really believe that what He said was true...We block out certain things because of what that truth will cause us to do. If we really believe the things Christ said - and take them to heart...they will cause a response!! Sometimes that is scary!!

CRAZY LOVE is the best book I have read in a long time...I am not a big reader, but I could not put this down...two 3 hour sessions and the book was done. I could not put it down!!!

SIMPLIFY your life...FOCUS on others as much as yourself...GIVE radically...allow yourself to be OBSESSED with Jesus.

WOW - when you look at what those statements say...on the surface, I am ok with them. When you dig a little deeper and start to uncover what they mean, and how they cause us to act - they are far bigger than I have ever felt before.

I am in the process of growing my music business, trying to sing and perform well, trying to help others do the same...I want to earn a living to support my family...I want to win a Grammy one day - HOW DO I DO ALL THAT IN LIGHT OF THIS REALITY!??? That is what I am working through even as I write this!!

This is not a one size fits all...God calls us each to follow Him in our own individual way...I desperately want to live radically and find out what this new paradigm will mean for me and my family!! I haven't been this excited in a long time!!

read the book - watch some of his videos...and lets journey this together!!

Kevin

it's been too long...

2010-10-22T09:38:00.003-04:00

Sorry, I am back!! I have been out of commission for a little. Not feeling as inspired...maybe a little too busy...I need to be creative and talk and allow my "true musings" to come out!!

Well - today I feel pretty inspired. I am sitting at my new wall desk...yes, I said wall desk...my early birthday present. It is a beautiful piece of furniture that sits on the wall and drops down and becomes a desk. I love using it...

So I am sitting at my wall-desk, with my homemade coffee in hand (actually it is beside the computer now, I can't type with a coffee in my hand!) and I feel free mentally for the first time in a while!

Heading to GMA Canada - for Gospel Music Week. Calgary Alberta has hosted the event for the past few years and the response out there is fantastic!! I am up for 3 awards this year...Seasonal Album of the Year, Seasonal Single of the Year and Male Vocalist of the Year. I am also hosting the pre-awards banquet. Most of the awards are presented there due to time restrictions in the actual live show. I will also be speaking at the conference. I will be teaching on Live Music Production as well and Streams of Revenue - Creating a career out of music!

So I head out tomorrow and will spend a few days in meetings and some creative time to just plan and dream. 2010 was my best year in a long time and I have an idea that 2011 will blow it away...

I have finally surrounded myself with a team of people. To do this music thing...you need people...people that believe in you and people that will carry the torch of your music to others. You can only promote you so long...you can only take your own career so far with out help, without a team you will just survive! I want to finally thrive in this industry!! I have been traveling and singing and recording for nearly 25 years now...Its about time I start to do it right!

Wendy (my wife) is more involved and just a few others that really are adding HUGE value to me!!! THANKS!!!

I am looking at new music to record - mostly originals, some old classic covers...really looking forward to debuting this music in January at the first show with my entire band JANUARY 27th, Queensway Cathedral - Along with Guy Penrod (his first solo date in Canada) and The Martins. Gonna be great!

BUT before we jump too far ahead, we have Christmas and the Christmas shows are finalized and it will be fewer than last year but they will be better!! Look for the schedule to be updated on line this weekend!

I am looking forward to this week in Calgary...I will be updating the blog with photos and such all week...check it out!!

Talk soon...

Kevin

photos from Peak Performace Project

2010-09-01T13:50:00.001-04:00

Peak Performance, almost over:(

2010-09-01T13:38:00.002-04:00

WOW! What a view, what a beautiful spot in the mountains...This is a great place to get away from it all and just work on music. For those of you that don't know...when I am not touring myself, I am still involved in the music industry - I am LIVE MUSIC PRODUCER. I work with bands and solo artists, on their LIVE SHOW! So, I am here in BC @ The Peak Performance Project - working with the TOP 20 artists in BC!! I get a chance to watch their show and than talk about it with them for just under an hour...One-on-One with each artist. I love getting to know the artists, talking to them about their show, talking to them about why they sing and why they write what the write AND THAN trying to get them to communicate that to the audience.

It is a real honor to be here and to work with such talented artists. One thing I have really noticed...the community that has been created here at Rock Ridge Canyon Resort...There is $100K on the line here and there is a real sense of support, and love like no other I have seen. There is no competition there is only friendship and helping and collaborating!!!

What a joy to watch different artist write a song on the beach together, play on stage with each other to enhance their show...just so much support!!

I am so impressed with each and every band and solo artist...talent, work ethic, and the love of music! What a great experience...Can't wait for next year!

I will do a total debrief after the week is totally done...2 more days to go!!

BUT I WILL SAY THIS!!!! I MISS MY WIFE AND KIDS!!!!!!!!!

Kevin

100huntley.com - Running , Swimming & Biking 452K For Haiti

2010-08-30T13:30:00.000-04:00

100huntley.com - Running , Swimming & Biking 452K For Haiti

Summer going by so fast...

2010-07-13T12:18:00.002-04:00

Just returned from Vancouver, home for a week, then back and forth to the cottage for 2 weeks, than doing some shows, back out in BC for 2 weeks, than Alberta, than my Marathon, and than the Christmas tour...YIKES!!!

Christmas planning now! I feel like the summer is an after thought...It is over so quickly.

So - that got me thinking...how many things in life are like that? We plan and wait and get excited about these BIG moments and than that big moment is gone so fast and thee next thing you know its over and you are waiting for the next big thing. Frustrating way to live. We very rarely are present...in the moment! I am trying so hard to enjoy each day...live in the moment! Great things happen everyday that we miss...waiting for the BIG thing to come...

So today - just reminding you to stop and smell the roses - take time to hug your kids, your spouse, smile at someone - live in the moment, you don't know how many you will have!!

Kevin

These are they - Heavens Rehearsal

2010-06-06T17:01:00.000-04:00

Inner and Outer = ?? Really??

2010-06-01T15:17:00.003-04:00

Strange title...I know!! Here is the idea behind this...

My life over the last 5 years or so has been very frustrating...Spritually, Physically, Financially and Professionally. I have been trying to better myself and my family - doing a lot of the same things over and over and over and over...expecting things to finally fall into place and therefore gain a different result. I know that you dont do that...I understand that is the definition of insanity - BUT I never really equated that to what I was doing - I didn't think I was doing the same things, they always looked different.

I came to this conclusion a little while ago but never put it into practice...I fought the same demons in my life, seemed to battle the same things, frustrated by the same things...always in a financial bind...never having enough but always being so close to something big - looking and feeling like a loser! I was waffling and didn't really know what to do...

I use to always tell Wendy that I felt that my physical body was a representation of my relationship with God - hang on let me explain my theology!!

I really felt that when I neglected my body it effected my spiritual growth, my relationship with God and others were also effected negatively. When I keep my car clean, my room clean, the house clean, look after my family, work hard and stay in shape...ALL of those things feel like an outward representation of my relationship with God. My mind seems clearer, I seem to have the capacity to be a better person...

This last week has only started to skim the surface for me, but I have noticed that my level of patience is a bit better...my thoughts are clearer...I feel an inner growth because I am starting to care about the outer again! Does this make sense??

I know this is really "out there" thinking but I do feel that there is a corelation between looking after the "temple" and the health of my relationship with God!

Maybe it is just that I am allowing God to speak to me as I run...as I empty myself of the "toxins" I am able to fill it with HIS presence. Maybe all of this is teaching me to take control of the "flesh" and anytime you do that you allow God to speak to you...

ANYWAY - I don't always explain myself very well, but I know that the more I look after the outer person, the better my inner person becomes and my relationship with God is allowed to grow!

So - here's to a sub-4 HOUR Marathon and a better INNER Kevin Pauls!!!

KP

November 1 - 1st Marathon!!!!

2010-05-27T09:49:00.002-04:00

Yes, I have announced it to the world...I don't mind failing in public, but I will really enjoy following through with this HUGE challenge on line!!! I constantly want to better myself. I have tried over the last couple months and have fallen short of my goal each time...THIS TIME I WILL DO BETTER!!!

I am running for me, my family, and PI!!! PI is an organization called Possibilities International - I want to raise $10K for the orphans and the widows of this world!

In November, my brother and sister-in-law put on a Marathon in Hamilton. I am going to run that marathon, get myself in great shape right before my Christmas release and tour!! I will have the street release date from the record company in a few days for the Christmas CD...it will be right around the time of the Marathon!!!

I am really scared...this is a HUGE goal...and I HATE running...BUT - if you keep doing the same things I can only expect the same results...I want to change some things, so I can change some things...GET IT!!??!!

SO - I need your help...this is going to be tough...BUT i am determined to do it...

I already ran my first 5K last night...I will bike on my off days. I also have a trainer helping me (my wife - she is a certified fitness trainer and running coach) so that will help me a lot!!!!

Well - here's to a new Kevin...anyone want to do this with me??? Watch for a new page on my website...you will be able to donate and to join...comment etc...

Thanks!!! I need your support more than ever!

Kevin

It's been too long...

2010-05-13T10:49:00.002-04:00

Sorry for the silence...

Lot's to tell you! Just came back from BC working with an amazing new artist Danica Danielsen...check her out on MySpace - her new myspace is great!

Working with Mark Masri - check him out at www.markmasri.com

Some of the artists I have been wortking with are very inspiring!!!!

So much going on at home...my kids are really busy at school, Wendy is training for a DUO-athalon - coaching, training and assisiting anyoen that needs it!!

I am so blessed to have the people in my life that I do!

my challenge is stagnent...I NEED TO KEEP writing about it...when I do, I do better...I will not get discouraged and quit!! I WILL CONTINUE!!!

I want to blog a bit more later today...

Stay in touch,

Kevin

Day 18, Missing Wendy, rain and new iPhone!

2010-04-08T12:52:00.003-04:00

Well it's day 18 of THE CHALLENGE! I am not as consistant as I would like. Running up to 3klm's now...but I am still not eating as well as I need to. Not a lot of "cheats" but I am eating little things that I shouldn't - too much bread...pasta, not enough veggies - you know...better than i have been and I am still staying down 4 lbs, but if I am going to lose the full 25 I better be more consistant than that!!

Wendy finally sent a text from Haiti - she is there safe and sound!! The weather is HOT and they will be doing a lot of work preparing for the marathon they will run for the haitian people. The UN is helping them pull this event off! The people of Haiti are really excited about this event..a little diversion from everything else!!

The rain SUCKS!! I know, it is doing wonderful things for the grass and flowers etc...but it is not good for my HAIR!! (LOL) after all...it's all about me - isn't it??

My blackberry was acting up! (I think blackberry's are really good by the way...they are an excellent tool!!) BUT the iPhone is so much fun and it syncs to my MAC so well...I am very pleased I made the move!!

Well...that is all I can say today...busy running the kids around, making meals, cleaning up and trying to get some work done...

I don't know how single parents do this for an extended period of time!

talk soon,

Kevin

DAY 4 - THE CHALLENGE!

2010-03-25T10:46:00.002-04:00

Inspired is how I would describe myself today. Spent the morning with my family, and when the kids went off to school, Wendy and I ate breakfast and chatted about our dreams and what they look like...our goals and how we will get there...focused on the positive...read a few inspiring stories (actually - we watched them on YOUTUBE) The success stories of the rich people of the DRAGON's DEN TV Show...they had nothing and made it big...

I love the underdog story...I love the people that had everything stripped away and somehow they found the strength and the belief to make it happen!!

I want to find that inner strength again! Now - before you get all up in my face about $ not being everything and that $ doesn't define success...YOU ARE RIGHT!! But, poverty isn't where I want to be either!!

I want to fulfill the dreams and the goals placed inside of me!! I want to see the passion come out again...the passion that dreamed the dreams...and saw the goals as finished...come alive again! Well, that is all apart of this CHALLENGE!!

I want to eat right - so I feel better, more energy! I want to exercise and work out so I feel better and gain discipline! I want to fill my mind with good thoughts, motivational thoughts, scripture - God stories!! I know the bad and the ugly happens...I am just a little tired of that being my focus!!

My life needs to re-engage with what I grew up with...I CAN DO ANYTHING I SET MY MIND TO!!! Is that new age? NOT AT ALL!!

God set the universe in motion - God put the universal laws in place...there is LOTS of evidence that prove we are what we think we are! I choose to look at life in a positive manner! I choose to FOCUS on the positive!!

I choose to make a conscious effort to be better in ALL areas of my life!!

I have let people down...I have hurt people...I have acted with lack of integrity and honesty...I have broken promises...I have done a lot of things that go against my core values (to borrow a phrase from Tiger Woods - not his actions, just the phrase!!!!)

I choose to draw a line in the sand...I WILL BE DIFFERENT!!! I WILL BE BETTER!!!

If you are honest - if we are all honest...this journey needs company...and we can all be better by being honest - and turning around and seeing ourselves the way we are - and starting to point in the direction of where we want to be!!!!!

This journey - after 42 years...is about to get interesting!!!!!

JOIN THE CHALLENGE!!!!

Kevin

The 20 lb Challenge...

2010-03-24T10:15:00.004-04:00

Well, i am into my 3rd day of the "20 lb Challenge!" So far, i have eaten very well, run everyday (only 2 klm but i am doing it!!)

Now - into my 3rd day...already feeling some extra energy! Feeling focused and mind seems clear...I am down 3 lbs...202!!

I am more determined than ever to make this happen!! I have lived the last few years in a holding pattern. I have been "waiting" for "something" to happen and for the "break" to happen...I have plans to CHANGE WHEN that break comes my way and NOT until!! WHAT A JERK!!

I have been listening and discussing things to do with success. My wife is really reading some great books and we have been in talks about how to get things moving on the right path...Motivational...but I was still in a holding pattern...

It was like the light went on this past weekend...met with GREAT friends...heard a strong powerful message on Sunday morning...and I came to the conclusion that:
If things are going to change, than I have to change some things!!!

I am going to implement some changes and create the life I want to have...

God has birthed ideas and creativity in me...NOW - I need to stop waiting and hoping...and GO FOR IT!!

What have you been waiting for? Join me in this journey as I struggle through life and try to figure stuff out as I go...

Talk soon,

Kevin

Do you know your congregation...FOR WORSHIP LEADERS!

2010-03-17T11:08:00.000-04:00

If you have led worship at the same church for a while, chances are you have a firm belief that you know your congregation. You should know them by now. But do you really?

I would like us to seriously consider this question: do we know our congregation? Or do we assume we know them?

I have traveled from coast to coast in Canada, singing in almost every denomination there is. I have seen many styles of worship and I have seen a lot of concerns. I have witnessed many song leaders that lead what they know, or what they like, forgetting there is a congregation that attends their church. Forgetting, in fact, that the congregation is the reason they lead in worship.

Here are a few questions for you to consider:

Am I playing music every week that the congregation “gets?”
Do I know what style of worship my congregation enjoys?
Do I care what style of music/worship my congregation enjoys?
Have I ever really stopped to think and ask what musical preferences are in my congregation?

Chances are…there are many styles of music represented in your congregation. May I suggest there might be many more styles represented in the congregation than you are playing? Is that possible?

There are a couple schools of thought regarding this issue…

1. It is our job to teach them and bring them along to the new worship.
2. We need to cater to everyone and please no one.

I would like to offer a different solution, based on the premise of love!

If you truly love your congregation, you will play music that is appropriate for your congregation. If you truly love your congregation, you will focus on them…and less on you. If you truly LOVE your congregation you will put their needs before yours. You will pick songs that your specific congregation knows and appreciates.

If you truly love your congregation and they know it, then you can lead them in worship. If you are playing the newest and greatest tunes, so they can hear how good you are, then you are not leading them…you are singing for them.

Now, I know that nobody reading this has ever found themselves being that selfish! Right? Well I have! There were times I would go into a service ready to show the congregation what I know…ready to teach them how to sing and worship! It was not my intention, but it was the outcome of wrong thinking.

I thought I was to lead in music. I thought I was there to sing and play. I forgot that my role – given to me by God – was to lead the congregation I was in front of, into worship – into HIS presence. We are to lay the groundwork for HIS word to be presented. We are not there to “sing songs,” although that is our medium.

If you remember that you are called by God, that it is in HIS authority you stand up and lead…that it is your job to lead the congregation into His presence, all the while LOVING HIS PEOPLE…then you will avoid a lot of controversy and have a congregation that feels loved.

That is a win/win!

Kevin Pauls, Live Music Producer
www.expressiveworship.net

American Idol - singing or performance...

2010-03-03T16:15:00.000-05:00

I understand that American Idol is a “singing” competition. But what amazes me is that in order to be heard properly, you have to “bring it.” In other words, you must perform!

Stage presence, your ability to connect, your ability to draw the audience in – capture and engage, and create moments – in one song, makes all the difference.

Last night on American Idol, I heard the terms “performance,” “stage presence,” “the way I felt,” and others like that, all get bantered about by the judges.

I know they are looking for great singers. But the best singer doesn’t always win, right? The winner is that one person who can capture the voting public.

Many of these contestants are working on the mechanics and the “arrangement,” but they forget the most important thing: onstage performance. Communications is 15% content (in this case technique or mechanics), 30% tone or emotions, and 55% what people see with their eyes.

One contestant struggled with the mic stand last night. (He could have used the information on Tom’s DVD Don’t Fall Off the Stage.) One of the contestants was slammed online today because he “forsook his guitar this week” – he hasn’t learned yet how to be dimensional in his onstage performance.

Even the one contestant that Simon said had the best voice was told to stop slouching, stand and deliver the song. Great voice will not capture an audience by itself!

So if, in a vocal competition, the judges are talking about performance…don’t you think it is important to know how to perform? You need to learn the rules for the stage, learn how to capture and engage an audience, listen to Tom teach about how to create moments.

Then if you have a great voice, the audience will be able to hear it!

Kevin Pauls, Live Music Producer

OK - Stop whining...

2010-03-03T08:54:00.003-05:00

Ok - i am done feeling sorry for myself. I am done waiting for the ship to turn around. Have you ever got stuck in a rut...just could not find a way to get out? Could not change your thinking and it got you DOWN!! WELL, I have been there this last couple weeks...Really feeling like I need to give up on the "dreams" and become normal!!!

NORMAL - what is that anyway...

I have been shot with an extra shot of HOPE today! I don't know why, there was nothing I did different this morning...but I feel a renewed hope and a renewed passion for what it is that I have dreamed of...the music business! My specific career and the company that I have launched called SPF Music Group Inc.

I know that this will not happen overnight...(it's been 20 years, so no "overnight" success for me!!) I have been hearing my wife (the life coach) talk to all of her clients and talk to me...the underlying theme seems to be "believe". Now we just finished the Olympics and the theme for Canada was "believe" - well we believed right into the most gold medals EVER by ANY country in the winter Olympics...it makes a difference...I have always believed that to be true but allowed defeat to cripple me for a while...

NO MORE!! I serve a God that loves me and that, I believe, planted these dreams in me...HE is able to see them through!! SO - I will keep my eye on the prize...fight hard and we will see WHEN the dream becomes a reality!

When will I know it is a reality...I WILL JUST KNOW!!!

just thought I would share this...if you are feeling crappy...down...like you want to give up!! DON'T!!!!

"if you think you can YOU ARE RIGHT - if you think you can't YOU ARE RIGHT!!" (someone famous said this...i think it was FORD?)

Believe...dream...NEVER SAY NEVER!!!

kevin

OK - True Musings...EDMONTON, you gotta read this!!

2010-02-03T10:40:00.003-05:00

OK - I like to be transparent...i like to live life on the edge and be seen for who I am...Well, in spite of having a wonderful weekend in Edmonton at Break Forth...my travelling - well let's just say - it was NEVER more adventurous!!!

So, last Thursday I am leaving my house with LOT's of time to spare. I left way earlier than I thought I needed and I was making one stop. I left my house @ 9:45 am - a drive to a friends office for a quick talk and a coffee and than off to the airport for my 1pm flight! no problem!!

The drive was going well, although I was starting to get nervous...the drive was taking a little longer than I was thinking and this was starting to make me nervous. I of course never thought of turning around and NOT going to see my friend...because I am pathetically relational!! SO - I thought...i will still have time! I also totally under estimated the time between their office and the airport...so to make a long story short...I saw them for about 10 minutes and turned around and booted it...I AM VERY LATE AT THIS POINT!!! I left the office @ 11:50am...my flight is @ 12:55pm - i thought I was about 20 minutes MAX away from the airport...NOT!!! It will on a good day take 40 - 45 minutes...now I have flown A LOT!! I am usually there more than an hour before (if it is a domestic flight!!) I do know that there is a little grace period and I had no bags to check and have my boarding pass already...I am good!! RIGHT??

SO - I am about 15 minutes away from the airport and it is turning 12:30pm...I AM LATE!! I am on the phone with Air Canada...they are telling me it will cost me $1500 to fix this...NOT PLEASED WITH THEIR RESPONSE!!! So I know I will have to throw myself on the mercy of the Air Canada ticket agent and hope for the best. So I am parking the car...10 minutes left before the plane leaves...I park, run to the ticket counter...no bags to check, show her my ticket and say, "I know that I am late, I know that I have to rebook, I do not have the money to rebook...I am throwing myself at your mercy...can you help me! PLEASE!!!!" I said all of this while winking and showing my charm...well OK - I actually looked very pathetic!!!

The ticket agent looked at me...looked at the ticket...there is 7 minutes before the flight leaves...she said to me..."RUN" Really?? You want me to run?, i replied...she said there is a 10% chance you will make it...I ran through security...they said nothing!! that was the fastest I was ever searched!! I ran through the terminal, and my gate...it was the last one at the END of the long hall!!! I got to the gate with no time to spare. They were closing the gate, when they saw me...did not event check my passport...allowed me to get in, they said..."RUN" and I ran down the gate...they closed the door of the plane seconds after I got on...I sat in my chair and was dripping with sweat and thinking...There is no way I should be on this plane!! WOW!! end of PART 1

Part 2 begins...
So...great time in Edmonton and I leave to come home...I land...excited to get home...the kids and Wendy are waiting up for me. We are gonna watch the GRAMMY's...my favourite awards show! I get off the plane, get my bags...pay for parking (another crazy part...for another day!!) and head to my van in the parking lot...get to my van...NO KEYS!!!!!!!

In the parking lot beside my van for 35 minutes...I look, I empty, I look, I empty, I look, I empty....I look again!!! NO KEYS!!!!! I call the hotel in Edmonton - there is no sign of my keys in the room and there is no sign of them in my luggage or pockets!!! The time is now 10:45pm...I called Wendy - told here to stay on alert, I was looking again!! I went in where it was warm...to look again...NO KEYS!!!!!

So @ 11:00pm I got to call my wife and tell her I needed her to come and pick me up in Toronto...we live an hour and ten minutes from the airport!!! SHE WAS PLEASED!!

She came dropped off my other keys...then she followed me home! I got 20 minutes down the road...forgot I needed gas...NO PROBLEM, we are only 10 minutes from the exit with all the gas...NO PROBLEM...except for the fact that I did not have enough gas to get to that exit!! I was so consumed with the fact that I FINALLY had a key, tired and just wanted to go home...the gas thing slipped my mind!! WHAT A DUFUS!!!!

So, Wendy had to drive me to the gas station, we bought a small gas tank and drove back to my van at the side of the road...filled it up...then i drove to the gas station and filled up more...than drove home and CRASHED in my bed...2:45am was when we got home...

OK - bottom-line...I AM A DUFUS!!! Can you believe that I am such an idiot!

That was my wonderful weekend...surrounded by CRAZY travel problems...I think Wendy will take the phone off the hook when she knows i am arriving from a flight in the future...in fact...i think all my friends will!!

Well...that is living out loud!!

talk soon....

Kevin

check out the blog i wrote on Worship Leaading...

2010-01-26T16:30:00.002-05:00

This blog originated HERE

Does Performance Have A Place in Worship

If I was smart enough, I would love to be able to coin a brand new phrase. In fact, that is my goal – to find another term that says performance without saying performance! Confused? Here is what I mean…

In the church, we have been taught that performance is wrong. That it’s arrogant, it is self-centred, and there is no room for it in leading worship! Well, I have a slightly different take on that.

We tend to look self-conscious on the platform. We often appear a little timid while we lead or sing in a church because we know we are not to draw attention to ourselves. The entire reason we act the way we do on stage is to deflect the attention to God.

However, the exact opposite happens. When we do not act as though we have authority on stage – when we act as though we are “too timid” – we appear nervous. Therefore, we cause the entire congregation to stop worshipping and start praying for us because we look so uncomfortable! (OK, I am being a little dramatic, but you get the idea!)

One of the definitions of “performance” in the dictionary says “the act of presenting a piece of music.” So how should we present our music? A few ideas come to mind…

1. Authority. Tom talks about authority a lot! Bono = authority on stage. Now, I know you are saying under your breath “…but I am leading worship.” Exactly! If Bono can have authority in a rock show, and Sting can have authority in a rock show…how much more authority should we have, as we attempt to lead the congregation into the Holy of Holies!

We stand in the authority of the One who created everything. The One who gives you breath has called you to lead your group of people into His presence. Now that is authority! We need to allow ourselves to act in HIS authority and actually lead the congregation.

2. Humility. True humility is taking on the authority given by God and standing in it! The tough part of leading worship is not singing well or playing well or picking the right songs. The tough part is acting in His authority. Being what He has called you to be is the difficult part. It’s easy and comfortable to stand and sing…it is not so easy to act in authority and lead!

3. Faith. It is a huge step of faith to act on the authority given to you. It is uncomfortable, it makes you feel uneasy, there is a little fear involved as well…but when you allow yourself to take risks and act on faith, not fear, you will be amazed at how the “singing of songs” is transformed into a time of worship.

By the way, another definition of the word “performance” is this: “the act of doing something successfully.” And, after all, isn’t that what we want – to successfully lead worshippers to God’s throne?

Kevin Pauls, Live Music Producer

The good and the bad...and FAITH

2010-01-21T12:17:00.002-05:00

In a moment of deep reflection i felt inspired to talk about the things that I have been wrestling with over the last few years.

There have been many "carrots" dangled in my life regarding music...many ups and downs in our personal life, challenges with "calling" - feelings of desperation, anxious moments, mountain top experiences...The gamut of emotions and of experience...The good The bad The ugly as I like to say...So how does this effect my faith? How do I relate to God in the good times? How do I relate to God in the bad times? Does my current circumstance dictate my faith, my joy or my state of mind???

I would love to hear how you have dealt with the ups and downs and what those experiences did to your faith.

Please get involved...this is very important dialogue!!

talk soon!!

the love dare DAY 21 - Through the filter of Faith

2010-01-21T11:16:00.000-05:00

Backyard Concert Series - found this video...

2010-01-20T17:38:00.001-05:00

day 18 - LOVE DARE

2010-01-18T21:41:00.001-05:00

2010 - a new look, a new project and some TV

2010-01-18T15:25:00.002-05:00

2010 will see a new look to the "true musings" blog as well as a new look to the www.kevinpauls.com website! The new look will be fresh and will also take on the look of my new project ANOTHER LISTEN.

Another Listen is available on-line but we are also going to be releasing it nation-wide this spring via a hard copy CD. We will have it in all Christian Bookstores across Canada and via iTunes around the world. We will also be having a nation-wide tour...ANOTHER LISTEN!!

Well - I hope you are not sick of Wendy and I and the LOVEDARE We are not quite halfway...so a lot more videos to come and a lot more "fun" blogging! We are really enjoying it! I love the fact that we wake up every morning and we are supposed to work on our marriage!! It has it's challenges, but it is worth it!

So you are seeing us on 100 Huntley Street, but I am also on another TV show debuting on CTS (actually it debuted on the weekend) It will run for 13 weeks...see if you can find it and let me know if you do watch!!

also...sign-up for my e-newsletter - all people that sign up for 2010 will receive the first single from ANOTHER LISTEN, called Truth Is Marching On!! Spread the word!!

Take care...and be TRUE to those you love!!

Kevin

Wendy Update - Haiti Trip - Jan 13

2010-01-13T15:34:00.001-05:00

100 Huntley Street brief interview...Jan 13

2010-01-13T15:32:00.000-05:00

Our "profile" for the LOVE DARE

2010-01-13T08:55:00.000-05:00

Wendy is OK!!!

2010-01-13T08:53:00.001-05:00

Wendy is OK!!!!

I want to thank everyone for their kind words and prayers…A lot of you knew that Wendy left for Haiti yesterday morning. The only thing that you did not know was that she had an overnight layover in Ft. Lauderdale!! WOW – I have never been so glad to know that she had a long layover!! She would have been landing right at the time of the devastation if the flight had of been direct…

Your thoughts and prayers and kind words meant so much! Just the fact that you cared enough to get in touch and find out what was happening was so great!

Wendy is fine!! We will know this morning if the airline can continue to Haiti or if they need to turn around and come home…I have a feeling the team wants to go and help…don’t know if that is possible. I will keep you all informed here as well as on twitter and facebook!!

Thanks so much!!

Kevin

Wendy's Gone...HELP!!!

2010-01-12T08:20:00.000-05:00

2010 - The Year of POSSIBILITIES!!!!

2010-01-04T15:58:00.004-05:00

I love this time of year! The endless optimism, the big dreams, the goals and objectives, the clean slate...you know - all the stuff that goes with the turning of the calendar.

Well this year is a year in which I think my music, my marriage and my life for that matter will see incredible "positiveness" Is that even a word??

A) Wendy and I are on 100 Huntley Street for the first 40 days of 2010, doing the LOVE DARE! We are doing dares for the first 40 days...called the love dare. This is from the book/movie Fireproof. (by the way, Kirk Cameron looks just like my brother Frankie)

B) I am one of the judges in a TV Show, similar to American Idol, called Gospel Dynamic Duets...it airs on CTS January 16th!
(more to come on that!!)

C) My music has finally got some momentum after Christmas...Lot's of good press, The Christmas CD sold well...and there are a lot of things in the works for 2010!

NOW - this is not the first year I have felt good about the year to come...but - my belief in this is stronger than ever.

I will be blogging more than normal because of the LOVE DARE so - don't get sick of me...come by often and hang out...this will be a fun year!!

talk soon,

Kevin

day 4 - REALLY??

2010-01-04T13:52:00.001-05:00

Ok…I am finding that I have to be a little more crafty to surprise Wendy!! We both know what the dare is and so we are both watching out for it. She says something nice and I am asking…was that the dare?? (LOL)

The dares are great…being positive, gifts, nice love notes etc…but when you both know what is coming it kind of takes the “fun” out of it. I am going to take this as a challenge and try to go over and above to the point where Wendy is caught off guard…

I will see if I can do it!

Kevin

Day 2 - something unexpected

2010-01-02T11:18:00.001-05:00

Well…she beat me to it!! Coffee in bed while she let me watch sportcentre in bed…LIFE IS GOOD!! We have a great day today with friends and so it might be another “easy” day. When real life is not upon you and you are still kind of on vacation it seems to be a little easier to be NON-Negative…I will let you know how the day goes…

I have to come up with something “unexcpected”

stay tuned…

Love Dare begins...

2010-01-01T22:34:00.001-05:00

Well, DAY 1 – I think i got through this one unscathed! Wendy and I seem to walk through the day without saying anything negative…I did have to stop her a couple times…SHE LOVES SARCASM!!!

Seriously, the negative comments are not really a huge problem…you think…until you try not saying ANYTHING negative. You catch yourself many times – a little dig here or there. It is comments that don’t seem like you are being negative, I mean you are not yelling or even upset, you just are not uplifting and therefore can totally be seen as negative!

Well – I did seem to get through today without being negative…I was positive in my comments and Wendy was positive to me…

A good start…2010 – A GOOD YEAR SO FAR!!

Kevin

Taking a breath...

2009-12-07T20:57:00.002-05:00

OK - so this time of year is busy...VERY busy. we all want to take the title as "MOST BUSY" I have 18 concerts in 23 days...that is busy. Add in rehearsals and meetings and interviews etc...that is BUSY! BUT, what if had 19 dates in 3 countries would that be more impressive...What if I had 2 gigs everyday for the next 3 weeks...pretty important right? Why do we want to hold the title of MOST busy. Why do we wear it like a badge of honor? I really want to be able to slow the process of life down...smell the roses as it were!!

Do we do that? Dallas Willard, a professor at a Theological Seminary in Dallas TX said we should "ruthlessly remove hurry from our life" Ruthlessly...I love that word. It speaks of aggression...going after it, being PRO-active...making it happen!!

This Christmas as you "hussle and bussle" about...try to remember that it is not a contest to be the busiest...IN FACT in the game of life - if you are the busiest YOU LOSE!!! You lose out on time with those who are most important to you...your kids, your spouse, your family.

So take stock in what is important to you...spend time slowing down!!!

Take is easy...

Kevin

The Christmas Tour...BOOK?

2009-11-28T18:49:00.002-05:00

well...the tour has begun! The dates are many and quickly from here until the 23rd of Dec. I am very excited about the number of concerts!! This is my busiest Christmas Season ever!

THE NEW CD "The Spirit of Christmas" is getting very good reviews and it is starting to sell very well!! Get your copy today @ www.kevinpauls.com/kpstore

But I did not blog today to do a commercial. i blogges today to talk about my book... and Christmas...

THE BOOK!!! If you remember last year I started by putting the first few chapters in their rough form - in my blog...I have been finishing the book and I am getting ready to talk to publishers in 2010...we will see where that goes! WHO KNOWS!!

I am looking forward to this busy time of year...I hope to see you at one of the shows...

check my schedule @ www.kevinpauls.com

kevin

Christmas is here!!

2009-11-16T10:34:00.002-05:00

OK - I had a horrible weekend...My Hamilton Tiger Cats lost in the CFL playoffs...my COWBOYS were terrible against Green Bay in the NFL...my Raptors blew it and lost by 1 lousy point...yuck!! AT LEAST Tiger WON!!!

BUT - now I must focus on Christmas...The tour kicks off this Thursday and with rehearsals for the Queesnway Cathedral musical I am in and rehearsing with the band for the couple BIG dates...it is going to be CRAZY!!

The CD is finally done!! WOW - My poor producer...Chris Omartian was really sick and was unable to get the tracks to me when we were suppose to have them...WE ALL ARE VERY SORRY FOR THE DELAY! BUT - When you hear it...it will be worth the wait! Some amazing background vocals on this record...the production is fantastic and the arrangements that Michael Lee did for this record - AWESOME!!

I am so excited for the tour to kick off but if you can't wait to get the CD live...buy it online at my store (from my website...www.kevinpauls.com/kpstore) it will be up tonight!!!! just loading the last few track this afternoon!!!

stay near friends and family this holiday season...and come to one of my shows!! SEE YA SOON!!

Kevin

Birthday Blog

2009-11-10T17:37:00.002-05:00

Ok - So I am officially old! Turned 42 today...My kids came the bedroom early this morning with a WONDERFUL breakfast in bed, with fresh coffee and orange juice!! THE WORKS!! Cards and nice notes!! It was great!! I got to take it easy for the morning...than the rest of the day was normal...

I got so many great notes and best wishes from family, friends and extended family and friends...I realize how rich I am...in FAMILY/FRIENDS!!

Thanks to everyone...you made my day FANTASTIC!!!

love ya'll

kevin

In Calgary Again...Loving it...

2009-11-03T11:19:00.002-05:00

I am so in love with Calgary! I have been in Calgary so much over the last 5 years...LOVE IT OUT HERE!!

The Airport is clean, the people are friendly...the air is crisp and clear AND you can see mountains!!!

Well, I am here again, just came back from Calgary last Monday and now I fly back for 3 more days. Working with a new country singer, Shane Yellowbird. He has a new CD coming out and this is preparation for his new tour. If you do not know his music you need to check him out @ www.shaneyellowbird.com

I didn't realize how much of his music I knew from Country radio. He is a great singer songwriter...you will love his stuff!!

After 3 days of being in Calgary, I head to Winnipeg to do a TV shoot for the show "It's a New Day" They will be taping Christmas music as well as interviewing me for future shows. I will let you know the times and dates for the airing...I think it airs on Vision, The Miracle Channel and CTS. Stay tuned...

Well...My Christmas record is almost here. I was promised it would be in my hands for November 1...BUT - there has been a few unforeseen delays...The online sales will start anyday...PLEASE stay tuned!! The Christmas tour is all ready and a couple new dates were just added in the last couple days...EXCITED!! First new full cd in a while and I can't wait to perform these songs..

Well - I gotta run...rehearsal starting soon and I need to prepare some more...

Talk soon,

Kevin

GMA 2009

2009-10-27T20:26:00.002-04:00

Well, I just got back from a week in Western Canada...Calgary to be exact. The 2009 GMA Canada, Covenant Awards. It was a fantastic week...

Downhere took home 9 awards...it seemed like they were even a little embarrassed about it. They deserve it though...they are great!! AND they are even better people...NO ATTITUDE!!! OK and the hi-light of the awards ceremony...MARC MARTEL - Downhere's lead singer sang Nessun Dorma with the Salvation Army Band - UNBELIEVABLE - standing ovation!!!!! It was worth the price of admission...even though I didn't pay!!

I was presenting a couple awards...I LOST the Male Vocalist of the Year to Joel Auge (HE TOTALLY DESERVED IT!!!)

The awards some technical glitches this year but overall it looked great and it did not go on as long...just a really fun, well run evening.

Arlen Salte and Carolyn Arends hosted the event and they did amazing. Carolyn is so funny and Arlen got his Norwegian...you had to be there. There was a really good connection between them and they made the evening fun!

Jacob Moon and Mike Janzen played an instrumental that was another hi-lite!!!

I was able to connect with a lot of great friends...Allen Froese and his band (they are amazing!!!) Dan Macaulay was there...Debbie Fortnum, Chris Janz, Jon Bauer, Jon Buller, Corey Doak, Wayne Dick from the Young Street Vocal Band, the Hunter Family, Canada's Double Portion, Brad & Brian & Curtis from HIGH VALLEY...my buddy TO TELL (a band from London, ONT), Ali Matthews and Rick Francis...oh man I dont want to forget anyone...THE LIST IS SO LONG!!

New friends like Fridays Cry...and so many...

You need to check out GMA...if you are not a member become one, if you sing and play - join us in Calgary next year! You will not regret it!!

kevin

GMA Showcase

2009-10-22T10:14:00.000-04:00

The Showcase went very well last night. Met some amazing people and had a great time reuniting with some old friends!

Went out for $.15 wings after!!!! $.15 - how can you say NO to that!!! About 20 of us went out after and had a great time!

I miss these moments...rekindling friendships, hanging out talking about music, faith and fun....

Good times...

I really encourage you. To checkout:

Allen Froese
Ali Matthews

Both are friends and FANTASTIC singer songwriters...

Well, a couple meetings, than I teach a seminar @ 3...supper and go hear the Downhere/HighValley show!!

For more info about GMA goto www.gmacanada.ca

Talk soon,
Kevin
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Arriv ing @ GMA

2009-10-21T11:26:00.000-04:00

My good buddy Dan Macaulay picked me up at the airport. GMA is officially upon us in Calgary, Alberta (Canada, seriously, there was a few of you wondering?!!)

All of Canada's Gospel Musicians are here...ok a few of them....more than there used to be! GMA has really improved and this conference is first class, well run and a lot of fun to be a part of!

I love running into Carolyn Arends, Starfield, Downhere, Brian Doerkson, Greg Sczebel, Matt Brouwer...Jon Bauer, Corey Doak...and the list goes on. I will be blogging this week and introducing you to as many fantastic Canadian musicians as possible!!! There is a LOT of talent here!!

Don't forget the new music of Dan Macaulay...goto. www.danmacaulay.com

I put Dan first because I think he is one of the best worship songwriters Canada has ever produced!!! Check him out!!

Reporting live from GMA Canada...

Kevin
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the debate continues...CHURCH

2009-10-13T14:12:00.003-04:00

Well, I must say that this created more dialogue than I anticipated! That must mean that we are all interested in why we exist as a corporate body we call the "church" as as individuals that we also call the "church"...

Individually and corporately we have a purpose and a calling...

Here is what I want to challenge everyone to do. I have my opinions and I know that each of you all have your opinions...What I am longing for is scriptural backing for my opinion or scriptural backing on why I should change my opinion.

I totally do not need to find out I am right. I also have no desire to allow my ego to determine how I will interpret the scriptures. I have grown up in the church. I was brought up in a PAOC church and have been attending a PAOC church all my life. Because I travel so much I have had the honour of ministering in almost every denomination there is...mainline denomination as well as evangelical. Catholic and Protestant. I can also tell you that no church corners the market on the move of the spirit, and no "church" is perfect...SO - it is in that spirit I ask that if you make a comment or have a idea or would like to add to this debate as I work through this with everyone, that you back up your idea or comment with scripture. Let's remove the "opinion" from the debate. Let's also try to not be RIGHT??? That is tough. BUT if you enter a debate already establishing that you are RIGHT...you are not debating or discussing...you are FIGHTING!!

So, I will post the opening paragraphs of my paper this week and will establish my thesis...and then I will bring forth the scriptures that back up my position...

I am really anxious for the comments and the debate...remember MY GOAL IS TO FIND TRUTH!! I do not care if I am right...I care that we find out what GOD truly intended for HIS people...HIS CHURCH!!!

Thanks for your involvement in this debate...your input and debate is crucial if we are TOGETHER to find out the TRUTH!!

kevin

The actual structure and purpose of the "church"

2009-10-06T16:50:00.002-04:00

Yes...it is a theological debate...

Well, I am having some issues with the "church"!! I am not 100% happy...ok - I am not 25% happy with the direction of most churches in North America (this is my frame of reference)!!

I have been watching for the last number of years the decline in numbers...the decline in religious education, the decline in a number of areas...while watching some churches (I use that term loosely) flourish and seem to be growing in numbers...actually they are growing in every way...OR ARE THEY???

Traveling as I have, and seeing the number of churches I have...I have an interesting perspective. So I thought instead of "pontificating" as I usually do...I will be doing my study and writing my own thesis as to what I find as I carefully study the Bible and diggin' into what the scriptures actually say!! (what a concept)

I will tell you my perspective as I go into this study...so we can together see what my perspective is as we finish the study...MY GOAL IS TO FIND TRUTH!! Not to prove my point or any point for that matter...I want to be open and honest enough to seek the truth - even if I am...i need to say it...WRONG (as if that will happen!! LOL)

SO - my starting perspective is...
I believe that the church exists for the discipleship of the saints. Those that have decided to follow Christ! The church does not exist (as a unit of believers) to win the city for God! The church unit exists to educate, disciple, encourage, discipline and hold accountable those that have chosen to follow Jesus Christ!
I am convinced that we feel the church is there to save people. We are encouraged to bring our "un-saved" friends to church and they will find Christ!! We plan our services so that the "un-churched" or seekers will be more comfortable and not be offended...
My suggestion...and the perspective I have now is this...The church needs to train and teach the saints about who Jesus is and why we believe what we believe...Teach Apologetics!!! Then together, encourage one another to effect those we work, live and deal with everyday!! Build relationships with people...be witnesses to all we have contact with and allow the Holy Spirit to do his work of convicting the lost of their sin and wooing them unto Himself...

Ok I said it...there is more...but you get the idea. That is my current perspective!! I am not suggesting that it is correct, but I hope to be as transparent as possible and as humble as possible as I seek to find the truth in this matter!!

JAMES 1:27 - looking after the orphans and the widows...are we encouraging each other to do that? Are we encouraging each other to LOVE like Christ loved...or are we seeking something else???

This will be an interesting time...Please - no HATE comments. This is an open and honest blog of reflection and debate. I am NO theological scholar and I seek to be understood BUT I also want to understand other ideas and thoughts as we TOGETHER explore the biblical backing for why the church exists!!

Mom' Apple Pie

2009-10-05T09:15:00.001-04:00

There are days when the stress of life gets u down. I will admit that the dull weather is not helping!!

You don't sleep well, your stomach is in knots and you are feeling the stress of life...too many things to do, bills to pay, details to look after...you know - life! It happens to us all...well today I am feeling that....

I am craving a piece of my mom's apple pie! Comfort food....comfortable surroundings...a fireplace and a hot chocolate...these are thing we look for when we are stressed...ok - these are things I look for when I am stressed!!

Today is dreary, it is a Monday, the summer is over and there is a lot to do...

OK - I have whined and now it is time to get over it! I still want a piece of my mom's apple pie!!! That desire doesn't seem to go away...wierd!!

Have a great Monday....or at least a piece of pie!!!

Kevin
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2009-10-05T09:09:00.001-04:00

Mom' Apple pie!!

Sometimes u just need a nice piece of comfort food...I will "dig into" this soon!!

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Christmas CD

2009-09-23T08:49:00.000-04:00

A project that I started 2 years ago (3 Christmas' ago) is finally being finished!! Thanks to the actions of some amazing people this project will be released NOV. 1, 2009!!!!

The vocals are being recorded this week. Starting tonight and finishing by Friday! The CD will then be mixed in Nashville and the project will be ready for release for November!!

My Christmas schedule is firming up, and I will have all my Christmas dates locked in soon.

Can't wait to have this CD available!

Follow this process along...I will be blogging and tweeting the whole time!!

Kevin
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2009-09-23T08:36:00.000-04:00

First day of vocals for the new Christmas CD get recorded today...a project started 2 years ago!! FINALLY!!!

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The new mobile blogger

2009-09-21T18:21:00.000-04:00

Just signed up for mobile blogger...that will keep us all busier!!

Kevin
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Live Like You Were Dying

2009-09-14T10:06:00.002-04:00

September is an interesting month for me. I am in a show at a Casino. The Fallsview Casino in Niagara Falls Ontario. The show is Country Classics! I am really enjoying my time...i get to sing a whole bunch of songs, I have never sung before, and my never sing again. Songs like, "Hey Good Lookin" "Your Cheatin Heart" "Islands in the Stream" and LIVE LIKE YOU WERE DYING...

I have 15 songs in total and the show is 90 minutes...but I will never forget the moment that was created when I sang LIVE LIKE YOU WERE DYING yesterday!! WOW...

OK - I was excited when I realized that I was going to be able to sing the song, LIVE...
I love the song, and it's kind of a MOMENT type song. I the found out, that my cousin, who is dying of Lou Gehrig's disease, had a "bucket list" and on this list was skydiving! A couple weeks ago, HE WENT SKYDIVING!! My cousin is living the song out in real life!! Well the song became a little more real for me as I was learning it, and thought about him a little as i sung it over and over and over!! and over and over...you get the picture! (the lyirc, if you do not know says, "I went skydiving, I went rocky mountain climbing...i hope you get the chance, to LIVE LIKE YOU WERE DYING!)

Well, yesterday, with NO ADVANCE warning...he showed up! Now I am not that close to this cousin because he is older, and has lived away from my town for most of his life...I have seen him on and off and our families are close but we have not had the privilege of spending a lot of time together...BUT HE IS FAMILY!! When we do see each other it is always a good thing!

Well yesterday as I was singing, I was so excited to see him but was anticipating my response to the BIG song...

I gotta tell ya, i never anticipated the response that HE gave as well as my emotional response...I will NEVER forget the first chorus...I sang "I went skydiving..." and my cousin stood up, with his hands in the air and was cheering!! (i am crying as i write this!) I was totally blown away!!! I will never forget the emotional connection that this one song gave me to a cousin that is truly living like he is dying!!! The pure joy he gave me, the pure joy of life he shows, the pure joy for just living for the moment...I WILL NEVER FORGET THAT MOMENT, when DON BISHOP gave me a gift that no amount of money could ever buy...he showed what living is all about!!!

I love you DON!!!!! Your courage, Your heart and YOUR JOY FOR LIFE will be a memory I will cherish forever!!

Country Classics

2009-06-15T12:28:00.003-04:00

I just had to let everyone know about the new show I will be in a show called COUNTRY CLASSICS (www.rgaproductions.com/music/index.php?dir=COUNTRY+CLASSICS%2F)

The show is playing during the month of September @ the Fallsview Casino Theatre. I will be singing some of my favourite country hits...Islands in the Stream (Kenny Rogers) Live Like You Were Dying (Tim Mcgraw) and a whole bunch of others...

The show is a real walk down memory lane...songs from before I was born to a few current classics! Live Band, big sound and lights...it will be a great show to take in on a September afternoon...

I just had to let y'all know (i need to sound like I am from Nashville!!)

Have a great day...and check out the promo video...
www.rgaproductions.com/music/index.php?dir=COUNTRY+CLASSICS%2F

What a great weekend...

2009-06-08T09:57:00.003-04:00

I had a wonderful weekend. Saturday I had the privilege of attending a good friends, daughters wedding. Wendy and I caught ourselves forgetting that we are not the peers of the bride and groom anymore...we are peers with their parents!!! That's a real eye opener...for the newbie in the "40 plus" crowd!! we are officially old!

The wedding was really done well...the ceremony was in a a beautiful old United Church in Hamilton and then the reception was at Hamilton Place Studio Theater...great facility, and a wonderful reception...and I don't normally like receptions!!

Then on Sunday I sang at Brampton Christian Family Church...it was their 25th Anniversary. I was given the entire service and had a blast! Great bunch of people...

So, here I sit at one of my favourite spots...Williams Coffee pub in Kitchener...enjoying a coffee, waiting for a meeting and looking forward to an incredible day!!

No great wisdom to share today...
(is there ever??)

have a good day!

kevin

Christmas Tour Planning

2009-06-03T15:23:00.003-04:00

Ok - enough of the deep questions and theories and ideas...let talk about touring!!

Christmas planning has already started...The first of the Christmas Tour Dates have been solidified:
December 1, 2009 - Carmen's Banquet Centre

The KW date is being discussed right now and we are looking for 2-3 other Ontario dates. The tour will have a totally cool look, a full band and some nice surprizes!!

Stay tuned....LOT's more on this...

Christmas Photo Shoot coming up
The FULL Christmas recording will be ready
The line up for the tour is being discussed
The posters and the tickets etc...all being discussed

The wheels are in motion and I AM NOT DOING IT ALONE!!! YEAH!!

I will be back next week with an update...

goto iTunes or to my site and download my Christmas hit song "The Spirit of Christmas" Celebrate early!!

Talk soon

Kevin

todays thoughts...

2009-06-02T08:38:00.004-04:00

OK - I have to admit...i am not in the most upbeat frame of mind. I am not "peachy-keen"! There are a lot of things I wish I had the answers for. A lot of things that don't seem to add up. I know I am not the only one that doubts...that questions, that wonders why? Am I?? NO, I don't think so...

grab a coffee and join my journey...you need java for this discussion! OK - get up. get the coffee, drive to Starbucks or Tim Hortons if you have to...the words will not move 'till you get back!

READY? COFFEE IN HAND?? Alright...where to begin...

Have you ever had someone you trust, I mean really trust, tell you they would call...and did not call? What about someone that you know and love, that tells you that they are coming over for dinner and then you cook the meal only to have them call 10 minutes after they were supposed to be there and tell you they totally forgot!! I mean your best friend...I'm talkin' 25 years, we grew up together - did everything together kind of best friend...best man at each other's wedding kind of best friend...just calls you and says he is moving away and never wants to talk to you again...

I am talking "out of the blue" kind of "2x4 up the side of the head" kind of bad day...Have you ever experienced a day like that? Have you ever been side swiped and did not see it coming? I think it is fair to say that we have all been there. When that kind of devastation happens between friends and family it is very hurtful, but when you think that God is the one with the 2x4 it leaves you asking a lot of questions...

I don't know if this last year and a half is all about turning 40 and going through mid-life stuff...I don't know if I just need to get in better physical shape and I will feel better...I have never felt so abandoned by God - and yet I have felt very used by him (in a good way) - let me explain!

I feel completely thrown away at times. He feels so distant in my prayers and I don't feel like He is hearing me at all. THEN - I will find out that songs I have sung, things I said from the stage or at my table have touched a life in a dramatic way. Things that could have only been from God...

I feel useless and that my life has amounted to very little and that I have let my family down - yada yada yada...THEN - I see my babies being baptized and being leaders in their youth group and playing the guitar and singing worship songs in their rooms without me prompting them!

God I feel as though I have messed things up in my life so dramatically that you couldn't possibly use me...I have let people down, I have not followed through with all my promises, I have been a bad friend, I have not loved as I should, I am selfish, I need to be transformed by the renewing of my mind as ROMANS 12 talks about...I feel as though this 41 year old man is just learning what it means to truly be...truly be true to all that is inside of me! Romans 7 talks about doing the things we do not want to do...I got that part down!!

WAIT - that was just a very big diversion...get back on track...or was I on track!! Let me explain what is going on in my brain...(this may take a while!!)

I do have some of the "I'm 41 and useless" going on in my mind. But there is more to it. I truly believe GOD has birthed dreams and visions of what He wants for me. I am trying everything I know...everything I can to walk and make those dreams a reality. NOW - here is the problem...I truly believe that they are from the LORD. I believe God planted these dreams and visions...SO - when they do not happen as simply as I wanted them to I question WHY??!! Am I messing up the dream because of my life? Is my sin a road block? Are my imperfections side swiping the will of God? Am I just not ready for the "plan He has for me" or what? Do I need more lessons to be learned?? Did I hear the plan right in the first place??

So in the midst of feeling useless and trying to understand God's plan...He somehow uses me, when I don't even know it. He gives me wisdom when I never saw that coming. When hard questions are asked He gives me words of encouragement that I NEVER would have thought of. He gives me opportunity to love and to show love...

EVEN when I feel as though I am totally useless He reminds me that He can use a jack-ass...like me!!

You do not have to have it all together to be used by our God! You do not have to feel as though you are in tune...to hear from the Almighty! In the very depths of life...in the pits that feel like you are really struggling...God will find you and pour life into you, even without you knowing it!! HE NEVER LEAVES YOU!!! It just feels like it sometimes. Then when you least expect it...you see a finger...you hear a whisper...you feel the touch, that is unmistakeably God, and even though you don't understand, you rest in the fact that He is there...

SO - conclusion...??? If life is hitting you with a 2x4...know this - it is OK to doubt (Carolyn Arends, her article in Faith Today reminded me of that!), it is OK to feel as though God and you are not connecting. It is OK to feel as though He has abandoned you...God has big shoulders, and you can scream at Him and question Him and ask why!!! ALL DAY!!! JUST REMEMBER THIS...He is the creator of everything, He made us, and yes that includes YOU! His timing, His purposes are not always understood...BUT He is still God, and He is with you always!!

Now...you can put your coffee down, hug your kids, your spouse or your teddy bear...clear your mind and listen. Listen for that whisper, watch for the finger and wait for His touch...HE IS ALWAYS NEAR!!!

kp

Our Perspective

2009-05-28T09:11:00.003-04:00

Today I sit wondering about a lot of things...Where will I be in 5 years? Will I have enough to put my kids through college or university? Will Wendy and I be as happy in 20 more years as we are today? What legacy am I leaving? Why, What...you know, the questions we ask when we are pondering our life and our purpose...the tough questions that I like to ask myself a lot! My life is far from being perfect but I ask these tough questions quite a bit, and I do think it helps me stay focused...even when it looks like I should go a different direction...ANYWAY - I digress...

The reason for writing today is this...while engaged in my own world and contemplating life from my perspective, the thought occurred to me...THERE IS A LOT OF PAIN OUT THERE!! Wendy and I have our own issues and finances as many of you know is one of our main concerns...BUT overall, the BIG things in life that matter have been OK! I stopped as I attempted to write that last comment...I don't want to "jinx" it!! (kidding) Wendy and I feel very blessed, and I NEVER want to take that lightly!!

But I can tell you that I have quite a few friends that have the money things down and life is falling in around them. Divorce, un-planned pregnancy, alcohol and drug abuse, family discord, health issues, relationships falling apart, hopelessness...and the list goes on!

It breaks my heart to see my friends go through stuff. I know it forces me to step back and really take stock in what I have. Money issues seem so small in the scheme of life!

I have my kids, my wife and we all love each other...I need to remember that perspective...take stock and pray and love those around me that are struggling.

I never want to be so self absorbed that I miss the hurting around me...Perspective!!

count your blessings today!!

Kevin

Faith Journey

2009-05-26T11:27:00.004-04:00

I am sitting in one of my favourite spots...a coffee shop. This time it is Starbucks...now that they have free internet!! (it's about time!) I am planning a Christmas tour already...man it's not even summer yet...the time fly's by!!

Just finished the Michael W Smith show in Hamilton...that was great. My band was great!!! The crowd was good...my mom clapped LOUD!!!

I am wrestling today with some stressful situations and trying to plan the future...when I do not know what the future holds...what a strange thing to be doing...

It made me think...Do we ever really know the future? In my world, the thought of knowing how many gigs are going to happen in 2010, how much money will I generate...will people like the new CD will the new tour do well or will it all fall away...??? My life seems more like a "faith" journey than most...but is it?

Not really...
Will my company be in business next year?
Will I have my health?
Where will I live?
Will my kids get into trouble?

These questions and many more attack everyone...you may appear to be in control...but it can change in an instant...for the good...or for the bad! or what may seem bad...remember perspective!!

So when you think about it, we are all on a "faith" journey...

Where will you hide if a storm of life attacks your home, or your family...because I am here to tell you that it will happen...The faith journey is easy when the money is there, when your health is there and when your kids and your family is safe...when all the *%#^@&* hits the fan...who do you run to!???

Don't wait until the storm hits...get your spiritual life in order...remember GOD is your source...He is in control...

Just my thought for the day...

2009 is going to be a great year...right??

kevin

today feels heavy...

2009-05-05T08:51:00.002-04:00

so, many of you have read my blogs in the past and I try to be as honest as I can and not hide things...today...life feels heavy. Now I don't want anyone to read into this...there are some things that hit you from time to time that take their toll. My wife is great! My kids are great! I have my health...again, don't read into this...

Today, i am feeling unmotivated, struggling with so many things. Perspective might be the biggest concern...sometimes - if we are honest, we take the littlest things and make them big. We turn an ant hill into a huge mountain.

I love what I do, I love my life...I just would love this journey to be a little more - consistent. I had a wonderful discussion with an artist friend of mine yesterday...we both feel this heaviness about what we do...someday, I would love to say GOD TAKE IT AWAY or allow the dreams you have placed in me to be born!!!!!! One or the other God...this waiting and patience crap sucks!! Here are the immediate answers..."God knows what is best!" "Be patient, He will look after you!" NO KIDDING!!!! I am just venting, I do know that He is my source and I do know that He is in control...but the journey often seems too long and too much work.

I feel blessed to have the life I do...I JUST FEEL CRAPPY TODAY!!! Is that OK? I need to be able to have a bad day...say that I feel like this and then move on! SO - TODAY is a heavy and tomorrow may be a mountain top experience!

When you feel like this...like I do today, or when you feel great or somewhere in between...we need to remember...

Emotions are up and down and good and bad...never consistent...GOD is always the same! My emotions cannot dictate my life or my actions. I need to stand firm on the Word of God. That will not change, that will hold me when everything else seems to be letting me down. When my emotions say He has forgotten me, my Bible tells me the opposite.

So in those heavy days remember...GOD IS IN CONTROL, HE STILL SITS ON THE THRONE! He has not left you!!

OK - I feel better! I needed to remind myself of that...

Kevin

hey daddy...you want to help me?

2009-04-23T12:23:00.002-04:00

OK - so I was reading a book that I thought was a joke...or at least it was turned into a bit of a joke the way the "christian industry" tried to market it...but anyway...the first chapter was amazing and worth discussing. But first let me tell you a quick story...

There is a father, and a son. The Father and the son have been seeing things from a different perspective for the last year or so. The father says it's black the son says white! The father suggests that this is not a good decision, and the son uses that as a cue to make it happen! Choices, decisions, actions, follow a path not prescribed by the father. The father is sad, hurt and anxious for the son's future. The son is 21, and able to make his own decisions. He has his own life to lead...inspite of what the father has advised!!

One day...the son comes to the house and asks to see the father. "Dad, we need to talk...I need your help!" I need your help!! - AFTER ALL YOU HAVE DONE YOU EXPECT ME TO DO WHAT??? HELP YOU???

Is that the father's reaction? No it is not...the father, so moved by the son's request, ambraces the son and says, "how can i help you?"

The father did not demand anything, he simply helped...

I wonder if our earthly father and son relationship, really mirrors that of our heavenly father and us. He says in the bible that if the sinful father gives stuff to his kid, how much more would the heavenly father give good gifts...You know the son understood that he needed help from his dad! His dad is not about to throw him a bone when he asks for a steak!! NOW - some of you are saying, "You don't know my dad!" You are right I do not! But I do know the analogy...The heavenly father created this whole father/son thing to represent the way it supposed to be...if in my flawed state I WOULD GIVE GOOD GIFTS...the bible says HOW MUCH MORE WOULD HE GIVE GOOD GIFTS!!!

SO - I look at that concept and wonder...how many times do I not allow myself to sit at my heavenly father's feet and ask for help, ask him to bless me, ask him to fix my situation!!

Steven Curtis Chapman put it this way (i am paraphrasing) "sitting in a puddle when I could be swimming in the ocean..." we often do not understand who our father is!! often...that is the understatement of the year! I VERY RARELY UNDERSTAND WHO GOD IS!!!

I want to dream and cast vision as though my father is who He said He was!! I want to sit at His feet and say bless me!! I want to dream as though there are no limitations to the dream HE PLACED IN ME!

I am an heir to HIS Kingdom!! NOW - do not get me wrong...I am no prosperity preacher, but I have, for far too long!!, denied myself, sold myself short, because of my own limitations...

I want to, without abandon, dream and cast vision of the things God has placed in my being!! HE has birthed good things in me...now I need to step up to the plate and allow them to sink in...and ask the father " daddy will you help me fulfill what you have called me to!!"

THAT IS THE GOD I SERVE!!!

He did it again...

2009-04-20T11:57:00.002-04:00

Source...who is the source of peace? who is the source of life? who it the source of finances? who is the source of everything?

Yeah the wonderful game continues...who is the source? God is my source...I know this with my mind and my intellect (yes I have a portion of my brain delegated to intellect) but my feelings and my emotions don't always line up.

For instance...I worry about things like money. I worry about my kids. I worry about a lot of things...worry leads to fear, which is the opposite of faith...faith comes from God...so fear is from...???

The Bible suggests that we NOT WORRY!! The Bible says that we are to be anxious for nothing!! If we are to take this to it's logical conclusion we would come the understanding that we are not to be anxious or worry or fear because HE is ultimately in control. He is the one that controls the universe...He has our lives in the palm of His hand. What happens when we are fearful...we look to US to solve it! We take our eyes off of Christ and we place our attention and our faith in man.

You might say...I don't do that! I don't put my faith in man, sometimes things are just out of control and I am fearful of the outcome! (you are not trusting God) NO NO NO...I am just afraid that it might not turn out the way I want it to. (not trusting God!)

Take every argument that you have and it's logical conclusion is we do not see God as being in control, or we simply do not trust Him...

Now you say, that is harsh!! Well, it is a bit harsh...but I am speaking to myself also! When I don't take God at His word, I am actually telling Him I do not trust Him!! OUCH!!

He said He would provide, He said we needed to lay our lives down and let HIM lead us where He wants to go...DO I DO THAT?? not as often as I would like!

so, once again...IS HE YOUR SOURCE? DO YOU TRUST HIM?

What if a situation does not turn out like you thought?
Is He any less GOD?
What if you or a family member get hurt...emotionally, physically...spiritually?
Is He any less GOD?
What if you win the lottery?
Is HE any MORE GOD?

We need to understand that our daily ups and downs do not control His level of authority in our lives. HE IS GOD, HE IS IN CONTROL! WE ARE ASKED NOT TO WORRY!!

SO, today...I take Him at His word...I WILL NOT WORRY!! I will trust His outcome, and I will respond with this...

YOU ARE MY GOD!!! I WILL SERVE YOU NO MATTER WHAT!!!!!
GOOD or BAD!! (according to me)
As for me and my house we will serve the LORD!!

Have a great Monday...

Kevin

Going to Alberta

2009-04-03T12:11:00.002-04:00

You know there are just some places that you feel at home...Alberta is one of those places. I have just as many hits from Alberta on my site and I do from Ontario...my home province...Calgary, Red Deer and Edmonton are all in the top 10 cities that hit my website and blog and facebook etc...

I have always had a great time traveling to the big Oil Pit!!! This weekend I will be in Red Deer and Edmonton...

Deer Park Alliance - a place that I have been to twice before is having me in for Palm Sunday. I will be singing with their worship team and band and just enjoying being with some wonderful people!!

Southside Pentecostal - I have been twice before, and I love going back to places that I have been...there is a lot less time spent getting to know the audience and more time just being "friends"!!

The Alberta scene for music is a lot more diverse than you might think...a lot of talent there and a lot of musical influences...

I am thrilled to get to go back...

I will let you know how it goes...THIS TIME I HOPE TO TAKE MY CAMERA!!!!

Kevin

The Day After

2009-03-31T11:04:00.005-04:00

The morning after a show always feels so draining...The show replays over and over in my mind all night...usually not sleeping well! Actually, eating at night after the show probably contributes to the "no sleeping"!!

I love how my mind works. It doesn't matter how well the show goes or how the response of the crowd is...I usually replay the show and find all the things I did wrong. I can find a lot every show!! I have been doing this for a long time but I have yet to perfect the art of performing. I teach performance, work with bands and help them with their live performance and yet I can't perfect my own show. It is hard when you know it can be better. I think it can always be better! That does not mean I am not satisfied with the results of a show...or happy with the way the show went...in fact I was very happy with the way the show went last night (except for Oh Sherrie - don't sing that when you are sick...that is all I am gonna say!!) The show last night was great, my band and back up singers were amazing.

I never want to be satisfied with the performance...I always want to improve! That said...I did have a lot of fun last night. The crowd was into it, the music was good and I was surrounded by my band and singers...it's all good!!

I am getting ready to fly out to Alberta this weekend...without the band :( I will have a great time...I love Alberta!!

I am busy with the Easter Presentation this week and next in Brampton at KRT. That church is amazing...Wonderful people...great staff. I am thrilled to be working with them!

well I must go...dealing with the day after a show...lots to do!

Talk soon,

Kevin

Why do I feel this way?

2009-03-20T11:56:00.002-04:00

Today the sun is shining and the spring air is warming up and somehow I cannot get motivated. WHY? I slept horrible. My wife and oldest daughter are away until tonight, my middle daughter was at a friends house last night so it was just my son and me...chillin watching a movie. He went off to bed, I fell asleep...woke up early and could not only not get motivated, but I felt a real desire for "nothing"!!

I hate the days that this is my reality. So many things to do, so much before me, excited about what is before me and yet...every once in a while...you have those days that you feel like you have cement in your shoes. The world seems overwhelming...not in a depressing sort of a way...but i would not mind if I could just sit under the covers and listen to music and eat chicken wings...and not feel guilty!!

These days are few a far between but when they come, I want to give myself permission to just chill...but instead, I sit around, pretend to get work done, accomplish nothing...don't feel better and then wonder why I did not just go and have fun!!

It is days like this, when I think there is nothing wrong with saying...I will do nothing of significance today so I give myself permission to have a FUNDAY!!!

SO - I am walking away from my computer and I am taking my son on the road and having an adventure today!!

WHY NOT! I wont fire myself...this work will be here tonight, Saturday, next week...LIFE IS TOO SHORT!

TODAY - permission granted...SEE YA!

Kevin

Canadian Music Week, New Dreams, and a Big Week

2009-03-19T11:28:00.008-04:00

WOW - Ok where to start. I have so much to tell. I want to cover a very cool couple days in Toronto @ CMW's (Canadian Music Week), some very new dreams and exciting opportunities, and a really great week coming up next week...

let's start with CMW's...
CMW is a crazy week when all the industry get's together and pretends to like each other! (LOL) It is funny to see everyone with their best face on! They all bring their "A" game and they all pretend that they are loving their week, when if fact they would much rather leave all the "board room crap" to their "people" and just play music!! Now I totally relate to both sides of this week. I am a musician and also someone that has to deal with the reality of the industry...the business. Both sides drive me crazy! BUT, both sides are very needed. Let me tell you...I was there to be with Tom Jackson from Nashville. Tom is a Live Music Producer and my mentor!! His website is TOM JACKSON PRODUCTIONS and we work together on the performance coaching side of my business. So Tom was in a panel discussion and also doing a seminar of his own that week. I go and meet with bands and help Tom at his table etc... What I found so incredibly interesting is that Tom was the only one that I saw, that was giving artist's any kind of information that would help them. Everyone else was enjoying the sound of their own voice and pontificating their opinions but were not telling artists anything that mattered to them!! People walked away from Tom's seminar telling me that this was the hi-lite of their week! CMW needs to hear this and give Tom more time and more seminars...The whole Live Music Producer thing...is so vital for a band! We are getting more and more involved with more and more artists everyday...they are figuring this out! A BETTER SHOW = MORE $ and a longer career!!

Dreams - well, if you have known me for any length of time you will understand that I am a dreamer! I love to dream big. I also love when I get to hook up with other dreamers!! Well, I have some ideas and dreams in front of me that are even too big for me! I am looking at ideas that even out dream me, but I am ready to go after them. I was telling Wendy the other day that I feel as though I am 18 again and the world has not jaded me yet...i am full of vim and vigor! (what is that anyway?) I see things as I want them to be and not the barriers that tell me to forget it. I am so excited about the "new potential ideas" that I am having trouble sleeping again...this time for good reasons!! Man...all the ideas are in their infancy, but I will be able to share more as this journey continues...we are looking at tv, movies and new worship music...VERY COOL!

Also, next week is going to be a lot of fun for Wendy and me. A musical ICON and a new friend has invited Wendy and I to a show in Barrie and then to hang out...Billy Champlin of the rock group CHICAGO, has become a friend. We have spent time together as couples...his wife Tamara is a killer song-writer also!! Bill and I have written a song for my new CD...Well it is my wife's 40th BDay next month, so Bill has given us 2 tickets to their show at CasinoRama and backstage passes to hang out after the show! Pretty excited. I haven't seen Chicago in concert since 1988.

Well, I know this blog was not very specific but there is a lot of stuff happening...This just means I will have to blog a lot more!!

talk soon,

kevin

Michael W Smith - May 16 Copps, Hamilton Ontario

2009-03-14T09:13:00.002-04:00

Well, I was just asked to be a part of the Michael W Smith concert in Hamilton. Opening for Michael W will be a thrill for sure! I love his music! I remember buying his first LP...Friends, You Need a Saviour...so many great songs and the hits just kept on rolling!

I have been a part of the Gaither tour and done the arena show before but this time I will have some of my own band...doing MY new songs!! I am really looking forward to this experience.

If you have followed my blogs at all you will recall that I said 2009 was going to have a different THEME than 2008...so far, that has been bang on!! I have been so busy it is crazy! Performance Coaching, directing and writing musicals, gigin' with my band...I will be in Alberta, Manitoba and BC in April...Good stuff!

I am so grateful for the friends and family and supporters that stick by you in the bad times!! WE ARE SO READY TO ENJOY THE GOOD TIMES TOGETHER NOW!!

Blessings...have a great day...I am heading down to CMW (Canadian Music Week Conference) in Toronto..The sun is shining...all is good!!

have a good one,

Kevin

deep thoughts today...

2009-03-05T08:52:00.004-05:00

You know there are days when you just feel like you can share everything and it is ok?! Then the next day you see what you wrote and think...AHHH!!! What did I do? This is not one of those days!! LOL

I am really feeling deeply these days. I have been enjoying the sun more...enjoying hanging out with my kids and laughing and just plain being goofy...I have enjoyed my wife - She is amazing, we have great long talks about nothing and then about deep theological questions and then about how to spend her 40th BDay (oops did I just mention she was turning 40!!??) I have been enjoying music again, on a deeper level...i have enjoyed teaching performance, watching people "get it" is very rewarding!! LIFE - I have really enjoyed life!!

I talk to so many people, I see so many things and places...how can you not find the good in life? Well at least that is my perspective today. It is interesting how we see things...through our filter...through our emotions of the day. One day the grass in your front lawn (not that we have seen ours through the snow!) is a pain in the neck because you know you will have to cut it...the next day you think it adds such beauty to your life! What's that about!?

I have been working through some issue of my own...things that I have always believed about myself. Things that I have allowed life to teach me, based on peoples responses to me, their words of "encouragement". The filter that I have was established as a young child. That filter than, if left unchecked will start to see things in a specific way. Your head can know one thing but your heart will not see it that way...you see your heart, your emotions have that childhood filter that sees things the "proper" way. Your heart will tell your head that you need to go back to the original way of understanding...the way you were taught...the way the filter tells you to think!

It is interesting...I for one have never wanted to buy into this "childhood" crap! (that was a VERY filtered statement!! LOL) I never wanted to believe that it made that big of a difference. Our perspective is nurtured by how we filter things...what we think about certain situations...that takes years to create.

Is the grass in your life an eye-sore or a thing of beauty? Why do you have the perspective you do? Is your life full of joy or is your life full of pain? When someone hurts you, do you hold on to it - does it destroy your day, your week or even lay ground-work for pain on going?? How do you respond? What does YOUR filter tell you?

As I explore these questions in my own life...I challenge you to do the same. Why do we feel good about certain situations, and why do we feel bad about others?

How does today's sunrise effect you?

I pray that if the filter you see life through paints a picture that is not accurate...You will find the strength to change it. We are supposed to change our car filters every 5,000 klm so maybe every 20 or 30 years we can take the time to change our life filter!!??

Deep thoughts...I would love to know your thoughts...

Have a great day!

Kevin

Winnipeg - Live Music Producing...

2009-02-15T23:28:00.002-05:00

I have had a really good weekend. I was able to work with some REALLY talented artists...Juno award winning, and artists that are just starting out!!

Check them out:

http://www.manitobamusic.com/artists/tracybone
http://www.manitobamusic.com/artists/tuesdaybloom
http://www.manitobamusic.com/artists/flyingfoxandthehuntergatherers
http://www.manitobamusic.com/artists/thewailinjennys
http://www.manitobamusic.com/artists/jphoe

The artists are amazing and worth your time!!

Some of you know that I work with Tom Jackson Productions out of Nashville. I am their Canadian Rep and Live Music Producer. When I am not on the road myself, I love to work with bands and solo acts. I get a chance to produce their live show...It is a great privilege and I get to meet a lot of incredible artists!!

check out my website and click on the LIVE MUSIC PRODUCER tab or check out www.tomjacksonproductions.com!

Talk soon and if you live in a province that observes FAMILY DAY!! ENJOY!!

Kevin

Valentines...in Winnipeg

2009-02-13T11:17:00.003-05:00

Yes it is true...I will be spending Valentines weekend away from my beautiful wife Wendy.:(

I was not overly pleased but that is not always my choice - you go when the work is there. So - we are going to go out in a few minutes for a nice lunch together! I can honestly tell you that being away on Valentines is not nearly the problem I would have thought. I am so blessed to have a great wife and a really good relationship, so everyday feels like Valentines!! I know that sounds sappy and overstated...it is not! I live with 3 incredible kids, my wife and I love each other and all the other stuff is put in perspective and LIFE IS GOOD! I am blessed!

Well, it is 11:22...i am going to get ready, pack and head off to Winnipeg, but first...lunch with my bride!

I hope that you have a special someone that you get to spend some time with this weekend!

By the way...a quick note: There will be a small spring/summer tour that will happen in Canada...Marshall Hall (formerly of the Gaither Vocal Band) Charlotte Ritchie (formerly of Jeff & Sherri Easter) and Kevin Pauls (ME!) will be doing a few dates across Canada. We are speaking to churches and promoters right now...stay tuned!

Have a great Valentines weekend...

Kevin

Pardon...was that a whisper I heard??

2009-02-10T11:00:00.003-05:00

hold on a minute...shhhhhh...i think I hear something...QUIET, I'm serious!! I think I actually might have heard something from God!! YES, there it is...and it's...gone! SHOOT! I almost had it...it was so close!

i think that God is teaching me to rest in His timing. I think God is softly and gently placing people, thoughts and visions into my life that are all starting to make sense...does that sound too mystical? too...out there? I know that God speaks...I know that because He has directed me in the past. I think I know His voice...well, at times I think I know His voice. But I can tell you that His voice will never contradict His Word...it might contradict mine!!

I have been sitting back over the last few weeks and watching this "story" unfold...The story that I have teased most of you with...that is because it is still a work in progress...This was to have a conclusion last May, June, July, August...up until yesterday...now 6 weeks from now...I promise, when I tell this story it will make a good movie...or at least a good book.

But in the midst of all of this uncertainty in my life there is a calm...a peace, and a sense that God has my back. I don't need to understand the last couple years...or question the calling in my life...I just need to simply rest in the fact that HE called me and He will promote me to the next place I am to be...

SO - Here I sit, 3 CD's I need to finish, a Canadian Tour I need to finish, and a USA tour that needs to happen, and a UK tour that is planned for early 2010...I don't know how this will all happen. BUT, I felt that this is the plan and the way I was to dream...so hear i sit...dreaming!! NOW - it is time to focus and make this stuff happen...no more sitting and waiting. I have heard enough to suggest that I can walk out in faith and allow HIS plan to take shape!!

I feel so excited and encouraged...God is in the drivers seat...not me! THAT IS A GOOD THING!

talk soon,

Kevin

be transformed by the renewing of your mind?

2009-02-02T11:19:00.007-05:00

WOW - have you ever thought about that statement. Romans is full of those types of statements. (Romans is a book in the New Testament of the Holy Bible...just in case!!)

Be transformed - what does this really mean? Say a prayer of "salvation" and zap!! ALL IS GOOD!! after all we are saved by Grace are we not?? (that is a completely separate topic - look at the book of James! - another book in the NT!!)

What does it mean to be transformed...by the renewing of the mind? I was thinking about this today, and thinking about my situation and my life and wondering what this really means.

I see how incredibly important thoughts are. The Bible talks about holding your thoughts captive. Taking stock in your thought-life. What are you thinking about? Do you live in fear...are you paranoid? Do you think that God is on your side? Do you fear that bad things will happen? Are you in a constant state of battling negativity? What holds your thoughts?

If we ask ourselves the tough questions about our thought-life I think we start to understand why God says that we need to be transformed by the renewing of our mind!! Maybe I am the only one that struggles with my thought-life! Maybe I am the only one that thinks very bad things about people that cut me off on the 401. Maybe I am the only one that thinks inappropriate thoughts, maybe i am the only one that has temptations to not claim all my income...maybe I am the only one that says...no one will see me? Maybe I am the only one that says...I can ask for forgiveness!! Maybe I am the only one that thinks is it OK to think those bad thoughts about someone and linger there and draw it out and even think about how I could get revenge!! Yeah REVENGE!! There's a positive thought!! I travel a lot by myself...there is a thought battle!

I am far too human, and I know the struggle that goes on in the mind...so i totally relate to the book of Romans when it says be transformed by the renewing of the mind!!!!

Now before you beat yourself up...There was a reason I wanted to talk about this today. I had a thought that I believe came from the Lord...

Here it is: As far as the battle for the mind is concerned, I have been trying so hard to empty myself of SELF. Trying to rid myself of pride, selfish thoughts, selfish motivations...SELF! The more I battled and removed those things from my life, I have a very frustrating problem!! IT COMES BACK!!!! Here is an example of what it feels like. I am in the middle of a field with a bucket of water and it is pouring rain!! I keep emptying the bucket of water and then i keep coming back to it five minutes later and it is full again...I empty the bucket and it fills up again...i have never taken the bucket out of the rain...I can empty it, but unless I take the bucket OUT of the rain and fill it with something else...the water will always come back to the bucket...

SO - to completely transform my life...and renew my mind, I must stop focusing on the emptying process and start focusing on the FILLING PROCESS!!! FILL my life with God's word, fill my life and my day with prayer and conversation with God. Keep my mind "stayed" on THEE! Pray without ceasing...keep the communication lines open with God...Study the WORD...

Pretty soon, the bucket will be so full of other "stuff" that water will no longer be able to gather and will run away from the bucket!! Pretty soon, you will not have to try to empty the bucket from your SELF, but you will need a bigger bucket to contain all the goodness the LORD wants to supply for us...

I have known this for years...TODAY I feel that God has truly shown me this to be true in my own life! Thank you God for being so patient with me...

Talk to you soon,

Kevin

new hope for a new day...

2009-01-30T14:23:00.003-05:00

do you ever get to the point where you give up! You have had enough and said "forget it I quit!!" Well I got to that point several times last year. If any of you have followed my blogs over the last 10 months you have journeyed a little with me and know that 2008 NEVER HAPPENED!!! (we didn't see anything...if you saw Madagascar, you got this!!)

There were many days when packin' it in seemed like the only solution. Becoming a garbage man (not that there's anything wrong with that) and moving into a 1 bedroom apartment and selling my home my car and van...and at least one of my kids!! (LOL) looked like a good option!! I felt as though HOPE had left the building. It is amazing that power of HOPE! It is equally as powerful positively as it is negatively...it can lift you up like nothing else, and the absence of hope can drag you into the pit of despair.

My wife told me of an interview that she saw with Tom Hanks. Tom Hanks is one of my favourite (Canadian spelling!!) actors! In this interview he was asked about his "secret of success" He stopped and paused...thought about it, and then very calmly stated this..."I'm still here!" He went on to explain...He felt that he was not the most talented or the most gifted actor. Others that he had worked with, in his opinion, were far better actors...BUT THEY ALL QUIT AND HE WAS STILL THERE!!!

It would appear that perseverance pays a great dividend. The rewards of looking back over a hellish year and realizing that you are still breathing, your family still lives with you, your wife still loves you, and you still have the ability to dream...is very gratifying!!

I know that we all go through stuff and that we all have our own mountains to climb. The most important thing that I learned this last year was that if you want something bad enough...if you dream hard enough, and are determined, and you don't listen to those who say you can't...YOU WILL FIND A WAY!!

So - I have hope for 2009. I have seen what hope does...how it lifts my spirit, how it re-focuses my activities and how just the faint bit of hope can change my entire day!!

So - feeling like you need some hope...need to find some inspiration to get through today!! check this out: www.lifewithoutlimbs.org

if you can watch any of his videos, see his circumstances, and listen to his story and not find hope in your own life...you are already dead!!

Have a wonderful day...find hope today...HOPE, true HOPE is only found in the Lord Jesus Christ...He is the very definition of HOPE!!

Kevin Pauls

i got soemthing to say...

2009-01-27T10:18:00.004-05:00

today i want to say something...but what!??!?? I have so many things rattling around in my head today. Decisions and opportunities are coming at me at a good pace...this past 10 days have seen a lot of calls asking me to sing...Dallas, Atlantic City, Florida, Vancouver...Bands that want to work with me and have me put together their tour stage show...Churches that want me to come in and teach and work with their worship teams...

Now - I am not complaining at all...This is what I have worked for. This is the benefit of being around after 20 years. I am still doing what I love to do. I also don't share this to "brag". Anyone that is involved in any one industry or field of work for 20 years has the same number of opportunities. This is not about the phone ringing...it is about which ones to take!

How do you do it all? How do you fill your calendar with the "best" stuff and which opportunities do you say no to? These are hard questions. You say no to one, it doesn't pan out the way you thought and then you have an open slot on your calendar and all of a sudden the onslaught of "opportunities" is not there!

I have gone through this cycle...you get a plethora of calls and opportunities and you pick and choose and try to do as many as you can, and you think that it is finally working...than those chances come and go and you are left with an empty calendar and wondering how you fill the next month!!

This is the cycle and life of a musician. Most I know live like this and that is it! They just say, this is life and I have to learn to live with it...much like any of you would do in your profession. You find that groove, you see how your life unfolds and you fit in and roll with it!!!!

I have been trying to "buck" the system for the last number of years. Trying to be involved in more that just doing concerts...working as a performance coach (Live Music Producer), teaching and speaking at conferences, recording etc...

Being involved in many aspects of music has been great. It has forced me to become knowledgeable in many parts of the music business. Starting my own label, publishing company and production company has also been incredibly challenging...

I do not want to sit still...2009 is going to be an incredible year of opportunity...I am about to add to my list - author! 2008 as I have mentioned was horrible in many ways...but I really feel that it laid the groundwork for a positive 2009!!!

Thanks for letting me ramble...

Kevin

Resolutions - Good or Bad or Who Cares?

2009-01-12T09:49:00.003-05:00

2009 has started on a positive note. I did not really write a list of resolutions that I will never complete or stick to, but I did have a few things I needed to change in my life!! (maybe I am the only one)

i thought this year I will keep them to myself and try to start to making slow and methodical changes and see if i can keep it up and actually make some positive changes in my life. I started by trying to take better care of my wife's car...look after it, maintain it, clean it and brush the snow off, start it for her in the mornings...stuff like that...things that will make her know how much I love her. SCORE - 7/10

I wanted to keep my voice down and remain in control when I speak to my kids...earn their respect and not just keep them in fear...speak softly, love on them more...encourage and build them up. SCORE 7/10

work out and eat better...this one I have actually written a goal down and even though the first 3 bootcamps have been horrible...i feel a little better and am determined to make it a life-style and not just a temporary fix!! SCORE 9/10

i could go on with self improvement ideas and things I need to change...but what I have noticed is that i did not start out of the gate like a crazed animal and fall away 3 days later...I am trying something new...caution...slow...smart mental goals...achievable goals...you know, things that trainers and life coaches tell us to do - that I never listen to...

I am really enjoying focusing on change. The more time I spend thinking and contemplating my life and where I am, and where I would like to be...the more focused energy I can have on those specific things (am i making any sense??)

I know where I am. I know what I think of me. I know how I feel. Am I allowing any of this information to lead my future...

Am I where I want to be?
Do others think the same things of me as I do..is my perspective flawed?
Do I have energy or drive to accomplish the things I need to accomplish to get the desired results?

I really love this time of year for this purpose...reflecting and moving forward!!

This year I will try to put less pressure on myself and look inwardly and respond correctly! I do not want another 2008...I am excited about the future...I want my 40's to be the best decade of my life!! (minus the first year of my 40's)

Have a great 2009...or at least a good January!!!!

kevin

NEW YEAR

2009-01-06T10:05:00.002-05:00

Well - I would love to tell you that all is well and all is as it should be...but that would be a lie. I would love to tell you that there is no days of darkness but that would be a lie. I would love to tell you that God has performed miracles and all of my earthly problems are solved...BUT I can tell you this...MY GOD STILL REIGNS!!!

2008 is over and I say good riddance!! In many ways 2008 was the worst year of my life!! But i do not think 2009 could be the year i pray it will be without 2008!!

i have learned more this year than perhaps the last 10 put together!! I have grown in my faith and my sense of purpose. I have seen that in the midst of struggle CHRIST is there. I have also learned to live in the moment...HOPE DEFERRED really sucks!!

It all started in early March...a promise of "stuff"...that promise or the faith I put in that promise lead to a lot of heartache. I made poor decisions based on that promise...I found myself putting my faith in a "promise" rather than GOD!

I am prepared for a wonderful 2009...I do believe a lot of the dreams that God gave me will start to become reality...the journey will not be easy. I am excited to see what 2009 has in store for me and my family...

DREAMS
1. I pray that TRUE will finally be finished and released!
2. I plan on finishing 2 Christmas CD's
3. I want to finish my book
4. I want to finish my Canadian Tour of TRUE and take the tour into the USA

I put these dreams in writing because I want you to know where I am planning on going...I am not afraid to fail...but I am very afraid NOT TO DREAM!!!

I am looking forward to an incredibly DREAM filled 2009! No more HOPE DEFERRED...i will take a hold of every-day and make every-moment count!! We can never get it back...

I will talk soon...

kevin

been too long...

2008-12-02T09:49:00.004-05:00

hey everyone,

November was a busy month and a very poor BLOGGING month! I have a lot to say, I just did not write it down! i had a great time in PEI a week ago. Worked with some very talented bands and artists...GREAT TIME!

One of these days I would really like to visit Charlottetown in the summer!! I have been there in January and now November!! It is an island, with beaches by the ocean...and I show up with ice and snow!! Not very bright!

Now I am back in snow covered Southern Ontario. Preparing for Christmas and a lot of Christmas singing and touring. I will be back out in Halifax for a day, and singing all over Ontario...busy, but good!!

I just want you to know that all the talk this summer about the BIG thing that never happened and all the story behind it etc...The story is just about over and written...

I know I am driving most of you crazy but let me tell you this...the story is worth the wait!

I am very excited for Christmas...I love this time of year!! We put our Christmas tree up really early this year. We are all anxious for Christmas day!

I hope that your December is good. Don't allow yourself to get caught up in the hussle and bussle and forget why we celebrate! Jesus Christ was born!! We celebrate His birthday and His life...BECAUSE, without HIS life, our life would be VERY different!!

He is the reason for the season!!

Kevin

Heaven's Rehearsal! WOW

2008-11-06T11:57:00.002-05:00

Ok, I have to admit that the name kind of makes me a little skeptical. I was not involved last year so I do not have the benefit of experiencing it before...I thought, the ROGERS CENTRE (formerly known as the SkyDome), for an event that there are no personalities attached to it, nothing...just christians getting together and worshiping...just a HUGE church service...
I AM FAR TOO SKEPTICAL FOR MY OWN GOOD!!!

This was one of the most incredible nights of my life...I did not have to be involved to enjoy this. There was nearly 30,000 people there (i think...) and there was no MC, nobody looked as though they were there to claim the event as their own...no big name superstars to claim that everyone was there to see them...JUST thousands of people gathering together to unite the different races and countries represented and in UNITY - WORSHIP THE ALMIGHTY GOD!!

WOW, it was amazing!

I was so honored to be a small part of it. The orchestra, the band, the choir, the dancers...they were all amazing! They all played and sang and danced with passion and with one heart...it was truly humbling to be there!

I was ministered to. I was humbled and honored to be there!

if you missed it...don't miss next year!!!

Blessings,

Kevin

Back Home from Alberta

2008-10-31T12:45:00.004-04:00

I am so glad to be home...I love my family!!

I had a great time in Alberta, in spite of the phone in the toilet incident!! I got to sing in Red Deer, Airdrie, Lethbridge and Calgary...participated in GMA Events, gave out 3 awards with Cathy Cuts of World Vision, worked with a band called Random Taks Collective and did an interview for Global TV in Lethbridge! All in all a very good 10 days.

I am preparing for another busy couple days...today I sing at an event @ Canada Christian College, tomorrow I am singing at a race for Haiti, and then at night I sing for Heaven's Rehearsal...Sunday AM I am at Global International Ministries!

I am so grateful for the opportunity to sing...I am blessed beyond measure...

No, all the circumstances have not changed in my life...just my outlook! God is good and my family is healthy and I love my wife and kids...how can it be bad!!???

I hope to give you a full report of Heaven's Rehearsal. 35,000 people - Rogers Centre...all worshiping!! WOW, this is gonna be fun!

later,
Kevin

Worship Night @ GMA Canada

2008-10-22T12:59:00.003-04:00

What a great night of Worship! GMA Canada revs up for another great week of events, seminars, concerts and then ending with the Covenant Awards...

Last night, COREY DOAK DEBBIE FORTNUM ARLEN SALTE and MATT BROUWER all participated in the evening. I had the privilege of leading worship with Arlen. He runs the largest ministry conference I think in North America if not the world...Break Forth in Edmonton! He has been in the industry for over 30 years. Great man of God and a wonderful person!

Corey started the night off with his usual James Taylor-esk songs and stories...what a great talent! Debbie then went to the keyboard and she leaves you speechless with her beautiful voice and incredible talent!! Both Corey and Debbie are just amazing people!! If you do not have there music...BUY IT!!!

Matt's band, the TEXAS TRIO, played for me and that was great! Tracks just don't cut it! The band learned the song quick and then at the last minute Matt jumped in and played keys for the tune...lots of fun!

Than Matt finished the evening with his new music! He is a wonderful songwriter. He is having all kinds of success in the US but continues to come back and pour into the Canadian artists!!

All of these artists were not only incredible to listen to and see perform, but they all have an amazing heart and spirit! What a wonderful bunch to hang out with for a day!!

Hope there a lot more days like this!!

Kevin

what a flight...what a night!!

2008-10-20T18:57:00.002-04:00

Ok - I have been flying and traveling a lot! I have been doing this for quite a few years and I know the process...be there an 1.5 - 2 hours prior to the flight if you are flying out of country, or and hour if it is domestic! I get that, and I abide by that all the time...

So it is 4:55 pm on Saturday afternoon...I kiss my family good bye and head to the Kitchener Airport...a direct flight out of KW to Calgary. It takes me 20 - 25 minutes to get to the airport. I fly out at 6:15 pm...lots of time...right?? I need to stop into Staples and buy something real quick, I know where the box is, and it will take me 5 minutes tops...So while I am driving, I fall into autopilot and drive right by the exit for Staples...no problem the next exit is not far and it will be just a minute more...now at this time, it is still only 5:05 pm...I am not panicing at all...lots of time!!

I turn onto the next exit and make the turn towards the store and as I am turning...I realize I am caught in incredible traffic...I cannot turn around and there is a median in the middle of the road and the traffic is crazy!! Initially...not a problem, the more I drive I realize this is becoming an issue...I waiver...do I just stop and try to turn a round...do i continue...it just keeps getting worse, and I continue to figure out which is the best alternative.

I finally get to the store and it is still only 5:20, now I am only 10 minutes from the airport...no problem...inside the store...the shelf is bare...the box I need for my trip is not there...a little panic sets in, I ask the sales guy - he VERY SLOWLY, looks and eventually finds it!!!!

now I am in full blown panic - OK - fly out of the parking lot into another parking lot called the highway...I finally make it to the airport and park and run into the check-in...you gotta know the airport, it is the size of a large home...I see the plane, no one is getting on, and there is 25 minutes to go...SECURITY HAS LEFT!!! They will not take my luggage, and they will not allow me to get on the flight!!! YOU HAVE GOT TO BE KIDDING ME!!!! I went up to the clerk very calmly and I said..."I AM BEGGING YOU, PLEASE HELP ME GET ON THIS FLIGHT!!"

I don't think it meant as much to her as it did to me!! SO, the next option, fly out of Toronto, in 2 hours...so I paid the $50 fee, and grabbed my luggage and hit the road!! I got onto the 401 Highway to Toronto...still not overly impressed!!

I am about 15 minutes down the highway when I see a sea of red lights in front of me...NOOOOOO!!! I quickly turn on the radio to 680 NEWS and they tell me there has been a MAJOR accident a few exits up and they have CLOSED THE 401!!!!!!

A quick call to Wendy and she helped me navigate a detour. I got on the phone with WestJet and told them what was happening...I eventually made it to Toronto and with about 5 minutes to spare, got to the terminal and made the flight!!

What a night...i got in about 1 am which is 3 am to me. Then I had to wake up @ 5am to drive 2 hours to Red Deer to sing...as I got halfway to Red Deer I realized the package that I so desperately needed...was still in Calgary!!!

I do have to admit though, that the people in Red Deer were fantastic...the day went better than anticipated and it all worked out fine! A little stressed but fine!!

Then the icing on the cake...I arrived back in Calgary at 7:30 am this morning. I was cleaning up in the bathroom, just brushed my teeth and leaned over to get something when my cell phone (BlackBerry - my lifeline to the real world) fell out of my pocket and into the toilet!!!

YES - the toilet!!!!! I grabbed it right away and started to dry it off and it still sits right beside me...totally on, and I see all the messages that are coming into it and I can't get them...it beeps and rings and shows me that there are messages...it just wont let me get them!!!

SO THAT HAS BEEN MY 2 DAYS IN CALGARY!!!!!!!

it can only get better...right!! I am looking forward to GMA Canada...I sing tomorrow night at the Worship Event...Matt Brouwer's Band is playing for me...and I am leading worship with Arlen Salte...Should be a great night!!

I will let you know how that goes...

Frustrated but still laughing...
Kevin

no more dates...

2008-10-16T15:33:00.002-04:00

Ok - here's the deal...

I have given you dates that were given to me...100% of them have fallen through!! The story is yet unwritten and the end is no where in site!!!

i am frustrated, confused, let down and most of all...really ticked off!! Not at anyone or anything in particular. Mostly @ myself...

as i wrote before, I have allowed this "thing", this "rescue" to become so real in my own mind, that i actually already had it happening...

I have planned, thought and spent the money and the opportunity!!!

I find myself once again - staring in the mirror, wondering why i am such an idiot, knowing that my poor judgment has cost other people significant money (that I will move heaven and earth to replace!!!!) and it has cost my family!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

It is simple to walk away and say I was stupid when it only effects YOU. When you take others down, that is really painful, BUT when it starts to effect your daughters, your son and your wife...YOU BECOME A COMPLETE BONEHEAD!!!!

Now I know...God is in control!! It will all work out!!! Just give your anxiety to HIM!!! Just pray and it will all go away!! God wants to bless you!! God want to prosper you!!!! yada yada yada yada yada!!!!

i know that stuff with my head but I have to tell you that my heart is feeling abandoned, my heart is feeling overwhelmed, my heart wants to shake my fist at God and ask why??

Then I look at ME!! I can't blame God for any of this!! God did not make the choices...I did! God did not do any of the "stupid" things...I DID!!

I feel slightly schizophrenic...one hand I am furious with God...and on the other, I love HIM and will serve HIM and cannot possibly be upset with HIM for any of these circumstances!!

WOW - what a strange place to be!! I will tell you this...

As difficult as this stuff is right now i can commit to the following:
I will say as the 3 Hebrew boys said...IF MY GOD SOLVES THIS, PRAISE HIM!! IF HE DOES NOT...I WILL PRAISE HIM ANYWAY!!

My circumstances will not change the fact that Jesus Christ is the Saviour of the World!! It will not change the fact that He is the creator of all that is!! HE IS LORD, no matter what I go through and no matter what I think!!

HE IS LORD!!! AMEN, and AMEN!!!

have a great day...
Kevin

happy??

2008-10-14T10:00:00.003-04:00

all i want to say today is this...if I cannot be happy when things are going terribly wrong, than I will not have the ability to be happy when things are going well!!

in the midst of all this "stuff" that is going on in the life of my family...if I don't decide to be happy...i will not be able to be "happy" when things turn around.

Things will always turn around and the best way to deal with life is to be happy in and out of bad times...easier said than done!!

BUT - when I am coaching a band or a soloist and we are rehearsing a show...I tell them to do certain things in rehearsal. Often I get this response, I can't do it here, there is no audience...I can turn it on when the audience is there!! IT NEVER HAPPENS!!!! When the nerves kick in and the mind goes blank, you always revert to what you know...what you have practiced. NOW, if you have already got bad habits, than you need to practice 10x's harder to break those habits and to create new ones...

If you have relied upon circumstances to make you happy, it will take a lot of work to re-learn the art of being happy!

I need to re-learn that art. I need to be happy when life sucks and when life is grand!! Because even though I don't feel it...God is always in control, and ultimately...does anything else really matter??

so..."don't worry, be happy!!"

kevin

OK - here a bit more on this NON SOLUTION!!

2008-10-07T17:04:00.003-04:00

first of all, I am so thankful to have so many people, literally around the world that care enough to read this blog. many of you have been buggin me to FINALLY get this story on the blog...well...

i wish i could! I will now be able to tell the entire story as of OCT. 15th!!!

I know this is sounding a lot like a cop-out!! BUT, i need to wait. But here is what I can tell you. About 8 months ago, it appeared that my financial situation was going to change dramatically. Promises were made, and therefore I made promises...WELL - I should have known better, but this has lead to the situation I am now in...Nothing intentionally was done and there was no vengeance or malice in this entire situation...just an 8 month series of events that have continued to play with my mind. It is done, it is not done...tomorrow, the next week...I CANNOT DO IT ANYMORE!!!

I have allowed my emotions to get the better of me and for those of you that know me...this is not always a good thing. I have prayed for direction, I have cried many tears, I have allowed anxiety to creep into my life so badly that I have thought I was going to have a heart attack! I have allowed this to effect my day to day routine, I have allowed this to effect my bank account tremendously...i have had this situation become a dark cloud that does not seem to want to go away!!

Sleep has become an issue. This situation is hurting Wendy and the kids...not our relationship but their day-to-day lives have been effected...

"kevin - just let it go and move on!! don't be such an idiot!!!" I know I hear you loud and clear!! I have been trying to tell myself that over and over and over and over!!! The actual details of this string of events is not for me to tell yet...but I can tell you this...IT SUCKS~

But here is something that sucks even more...I have allowed this situation to turn me so internally focused it makes me sick!! I desire to live my life for others. I want to give up the need to discuss me and look at others. I want to lower myself so others can be lifted up...I want to be nothing so Christ can be seen in my life...AND what do I waste my time on...ME!

All my blogs are...wo is me, look at what happened to me, did you hear about what I just did...yada yada yada~!!! I am more sick of that than this dumb situation!!

TODAY - I will start to re-focus my thoughts on others...those that need!!! I do not want to make myself the centre of my world...others need to be that...

Now don't get me wrong, this blog will continue to be open and honest reflections of me and how I live out my faith, but I want my LIFE to start to focus on others rather than poor ol' me!!

until next time...

Kevin

nothing-ness, i feel like Seinfeld...

2008-09-30T08:07:00.002-04:00

Today I write about nothing...the weather is horrible and I have to golf in a charity tournament...

well i guess it could be worse!! (LOL)

I am going to go and enjoy my day...the kids are all fed and off to school and Wendy is leading a training group for corporate managers in Toronto...so I am bachin' it...(is this how you would spell that??)

I will be in deep meditation as I hit every golf ball with fury as I know that each stroke is benefiting a charity...OK - that is a stretch, but it is a charity tournament so...

It was just confirmed that I will be involved in HEAVENS REHEARSAL at the Rogers Centre on November 1st...for more information go to the Heavens Rehearsal website...google it!

well that is all the pontification I can muster today...talk soon,

Kevin

well, anything yet - YOU PROMISED!!

2008-09-29T11:41:00.004-04:00

ok - all i got is this...wait!! prayer, meditation, pacing the floor, longing...all of these things have not made this situation draw to a conclusion any faster (I will share the entire story when it is settled)

In prayer today i had a few things that stood out, and for me that are very powerful! There is one that I want to share...

"Be anxious for nothing..." This is a crazy scripture!! Crazy good!! Just incredibly hard to do!!

When i look at my present situation and the details of my life and my families life...I cannot help but, in the natural, be anxious! I have been pretty transparent in my blogs and that will always continue...but some details do not need to be public...suffice it to say, my family is healthy, we are together and in a good place...but our bank accounts are not as healthy!!

Anxiousness seems to be my only constant! I go to sleep with a knot in the pit of my stomach and wake up with my friend still firmly planted in my belly!! PLEASE - I am not looking for pity or trying to make a plea for anything...JUST SHARING!!!

How do we take that knot of anxiousness and throw it away? How do we be anxious FOR NOTHING!??? I really think that focus has a lot to do with it...I am trying so hard not to think about the issues that are making me anxious...that I focus on nothing else!!

God is asking for my attention, He can speak peace into a situation...BUT i don't want His peace I simply want His solution!!! PEACE that God gives takes away anxiety and replaces that void with HIM!! OH HOW I NEED TO LEARN THAT!!!

The other part of this that drives me crazy is the spiritual games that I play with myself. Am I doing the right thing? If I was, would not everything be going better? Am I hearing God??

In devotions this morning I was sharing how this week, God really seemed to use me to speak into a few lives at GDD Camp Week (go to www.gospelsduets.com)...then Wendy said this...

If you can hear from God to speak in to lives and He can use you to do ministry...than maybe you are hearing Him...If you are told to go straight and you are going straight, why do you always question if going straight is right or not? The person giving the directions will tell you when it is time to turn!

SO - I continue to go straight - confused, YES, frustrated, YES! - but until the creator of all that is tells me to turn - I will continue to go straight!!

Talk to you soon,

Kevin

ok this isn't funny anymore...

2008-09-17T09:22:00.003-04:00

Answers come slowly when you are waiting for them!!

I remember the drive to Braeside camp as a kid seemed...it felt like such a LONG ride. I was always looking forward to being there. I had friends from all over Ontario there. Friends I didn't see anywhere else, just camp! My mind was already there playing and hanging out, before we even left the house. Strangely enough, when we would be on our way home the ride seemed to take no time at all! I didn't want to go...i did not want to reach the destination!!

Then there was Christmas Eve...the longest night in the world!!!! I would wake up at 2, 3 , 5 and then 6am...I would never go back to sleep...anticipating the incredible morning that seemed to never want to arrive!!! The day...after the presents seemed...well, a little faster!!

I have felt a little like that over the last couple days, weeks and months!! Actually it has been 8 months....

Dreams that I truly believe God placed inside of me, have been placed on hold while God molds me and teaches me and trains me and...OK - I am good!! I have had enough character building to last a lifetime!!!!!!!!

Seriously, the things that I have learned...the places emotionally I have had to go and the things I have seen have completely changed me...my motives, my plans, the reasons why - have all come into focus!! HIS WILL, HIS TIMING, HIS ANSWER - NOT MINE!!!

I submit to HIS Will and HIS TIMING!!!! I will take a bullet to see JAMES 1:27 become my life!! I am sick of living for me!! I want HIS purpose for my life and I feel that this last 8 months of HELL, have been the greatest testing ground of my life!

Now, I am not suggesting that my testing ground is any harder than yours...this blog, these stories and this reality for me has NEVER been about comparison. There are many many millions of people that go through a lot harder stuff...but from my perspective, God has challenged me, stretched me, even taken things from me - so that i would be ready to deal with what is about to transpire...

I can only tell you at this point...the end is near, the fat lady is warming up, and i can see the light at the end of the tunnel. Pardon...what's that...oh cool, that fat lady is entering the building...she is about to take centre stage!!!!! OH HOW I WANT TO BE READY!!!

SO - the announcement will be postponed for another couple days...It will be worth the wait!! I PROMISE YOU!!

kp

perspective

2008-09-11T10:19:00.002-04:00

as i get closer to the end of this crazy years journey, i am forced to look back at the way I have dealt with the stress and the ups & downs emotionally...

for the most part, I think i did ok??!
I did not commit murder...that' s a good thing.
I did not run out on my family...positive!
I did not beat my kids...they are very pleased about that!!
I did not lose my faith...in fact it is stronger than ever.

So...the list of "i did not's" can be fairly large and I can take comfort in those...BUT what DID I do!???

Not doing things is not always the only goal. I do not want to spend my life being pleased that I did not blow up buildings, when in fact I did not build anything significant!!!

I can see it now...RIP - Kevin did nothing to anyone and lived a harmless life!~

I know that along the way, i will have hurt someone, been unkind and will have offended someone, if not many! None of those things are good or intentional...BUT if we are to endure life and come out the other side better for the experience...we then need to do something!!! If hardships are to make us better, we cannot settle for mediocrity anymore. The status quo will not cut it...just not being really bad, will not satisfy anymore!!!

SO - if this last year has been a tough journey, and if this TOUGH journey is coming to a conclusion, than where will it lead me??

Will it lead me to not be as judgmental?
Will it lead me to be more compassionate to those in need?
Will it force me to think of others first?
Will my life become less important, and other's more important?
Will i give more away to those in need than ever before?
Will I be a better ambassador for the Gospel?
Will it lead me to be a better father?
Will it lead me to be a better husband?
Will i handle my finances better?
Will I be known for being a man of my word?
Will I...this list goes on!!

I do not want to stand in this valley and see the mountain...and then forget!! I NEED to learn from this, I need to take this and have God infuse it into my spirit. God can take these journey's and make them points of reference in our life...I want that!! I do not wan to be the same...I want to be better...or none of this was worth it.

I need to be closer to God!
I need to be a better friend!
I need to be slow to speak, and careful when I do...i need to be a man of my word!! I am not doing well on that front! This is a good time to change...

Perspective...I want this time to give me a fresh perspective...One where others are put first and God is in the centre of it all!! If after all that has gone on this year...those couple things are fruit...THAN I AM HAPPY!!!

To God be the glory!

Kevin

a wonderful "beyond the veil" moment

2008-09-10T22:13:00.003-04:00

November 2005, Beyond The Veil won CANADIAN RECORDING OF THE YEAR -PEOPLES CHOICE @ The Hamilton Music Scene Awards...Just came across this picture...Good Memories

Beyond The Veil was Tony Fisher, Rodney Hamilton and Kevin Pauls...the CD was produced by Mike Noack and it will be re-released nationally January 2009!! Look for it!

my weird hopeful day PART 2

2008-09-10T19:13:00.002-04:00

OK...have you ever heard that silly saying..."here i sit broken hearted, paid a dime...yada yada yada..."

well it's not that way...totally!! I have had a huge breakthrough, but I cannot tell it to anyone until next week!! LONG STORY!!! I cannot wait to share it with you all (ya'll for my southern friends) This story is almost a year in the making and a few ulcers, "almost" heart attacks, and numerous sleepless nights. All evidence points in the direction of a breakthrough...I've already said too much!

Talk soon...
kevin